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Can someone give me some pocd advice? Don't read if you might spike
Hello, I've manged to stay away for about a month. I started seeing a ocd specialist and i've been doing better , I feel pretty good right now.
I would like to have some advice on whatI should accept? You see , I've been telling myself tha all those times I had bad thoughts about my sister while she sat on my lap or cuddled me and all the times I bounced her on my leg to see if it did anything or patted her arm to reassure myself was just ocd and that I never molested her, but i saw a post on yeahoo answers today where a boy with pocd patted a babys diaper to see if anything would happen and he was answered that he had molested the child because he had bad intentions? So my question is what should i tryto accept? I feel really horrible for doing all those thing to test myself , I used my own sister to reassure my mind. Every time I see anything to do with children or innocence, which is everywhere this time of the year , I breakdown and cry hysterically.
My counsler doesnt believe i did anything because I'm so "caring" , but I kind of did you know? I never took off her clothes or tried to do anything like sexual really....... but I did like bounce her on my leg when she sat on my lap becuse her vagina was on it and tested my thoughts which is really bad, I also threw a ball when playing with her at her privates a few years ago and i dont completely know why but I think it was to test her reaction sexually or just curiosity, I think I did this with my dog too. This was all during my beginning to mid puberty stages, if its of any relevance.
Can you give me any advice? Molestation stories make me sick and it terrifies me that i'm probally just as bad and makes me sick, but what should i work on excepting, that I have molested a child and animal , or that it was just ocd? Do people with pocd do these hings? Thank you.
I would like to have some advice on whatI should accept? You see , I've been telling myself tha all those times I had bad thoughts about my sister while she sat on my lap or cuddled me and all the times I bounced her on my leg to see if it did anything or patted her arm to reassure myself was just ocd and that I never molested her, but i saw a post on yeahoo answers today where a boy with pocd patted a babys diaper to see if anything would happen and he was answered that he had molested the child because he had bad intentions? So my question is what should i tryto accept? I feel really horrible for doing all those thing to test myself , I used my own sister to reassure my mind. Every time I see anything to do with children or innocence, which is everywhere this time of the year , I breakdown and cry hysterically.
My counsler doesnt believe i did anything because I'm so "caring" , but I kind of did you know? I never took off her clothes or tried to do anything like sexual really....... but I did like bounce her on my leg when she sat on my lap becuse her vagina was on it and tested my thoughts which is really bad, I also threw a ball when playing with her at her privates a few years ago and i dont completely know why but I think it was to test her reaction sexually or just curiosity, I think I did this with my dog too. This was all during my beginning to mid puberty stages, if its of any relevance.
Can you give me any advice? Molestation stories make me sick and it terrifies me that i'm probally just as bad and makes me sick, but what should i work on excepting, that I have molested a child and animal , or that it was just ocd? Do people with pocd do these hings? Thank you.
We were looking for a psychologist but there none in my area or even my stte that we could find that accept our insurance.
I know but I think I did something bad and i try the self coaching but I feel like I have to know if I did or not , I really feel like I have to know.
Yes you have mentioned those books and I checked them out from the liabrary a while ago and I read the ocd workbook , at least the parts I felt were relevent to me, and self coaching, and i read most of the idiots guide to ocd. the thing is though , I'm scared its not just ocd and that i did something. My mom is thinking about putting me in a mental hospital and i terrifid shes going to put me in one, i"ve seen so many movies of how horrible it is in there , I'm so scared shes going to do it.
I know but I think I did something bad and i try the self coaching but I feel like I have to know if I did or not , I really feel like I have to know.
Yes you have mentioned those books and I checked them out from the liabrary a while ago and I read the ocd workbook , at least the parts I felt were relevent to me, and self coaching, and i read most of the idiots guide to ocd. the thing is though , I'm scared its not just ocd and that i did something. My mom is thinking about putting me in a mental hospital and i terrifid shes going to put me in one, i"ve seen so many movies of how horrible it is in there , I'm so scared shes going to do it.
I know i'm sorry, nothings helping and really dont know what to do.
She is a counsler but not a school counsler, she has her own office< she says she prefers to call herself a "mental coach" , I only see her about once a month and only for a half hour to 45 minutes , i dont know if thats the average time or not but it seems kind of short.
She is a counsler but not a school counsler, she has her own office< she says she prefers to call herself a "mental coach" , I only see her about once a month and only for a half hour to 45 minutes , i dont know if thats the average time or not but it seems kind of short.
Hi there. We talked about this in the past. When you say counselor who exactly are you seeing? A school counselor or a psychologist?
Please someone repond, I just want someone to talk to about this, I have no one to talk to about these things. I feel so sad and alone and sick, I think i did molest my own little sister. I had these thoughts in 8th grade about doing things to her and i would get nervous and tap her leg or touch her shoulder or hug her and I dont know why, i think this was kind of molesting because i touched her, not n her privates, but with a innapropiate thought , and I would have these thoughts when she sat on my lap and i would kind of bounce her because i wondered if it would urn her on and it scares me so bad because that probally was molesting. I always hated pedophiles and child molesters and i didnt even think I had done anything at the time , i just thought it was weird thoughts. I always wanted to be a father , but how can i now if i might touch my child to test my thoughts? Am I a child molester? Please someone respond , please someone talk to me!!!
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Remember we key in on things that we think are horrific. I.e., you think child molestors are horrific and therefore you are not going to act on the thought. We cannot go back and change the past and if we think hard enough about it we are going to start to make up scenarios in our head about things that really didn't happen. It is the "what-if" syndrome and it is very common for people with OCD.
Please try some self-coaching the next time you "what-if" this. Say "NO, I'M NOT GOING THERE AGAIN, ENOUGH" in your head and then move on to something that occupies your mind. If the thought comes back, say the same thing. Don't let it keep going on in your mind because as you can see it just leads to more second guessing.
Also, did I mentioned these books?
The OCD Workbook: YOur Guide to Breaking Free of OCD
Self-Coaching by Joseph Luciani
Brain Lock