Im sad to say im having suicidal thoughts... do you think a therapist would understand this theme and be able to help along with a pdoc? The one closest to me, on their website it says erp in 17 sessions. I didn't know they had a limit and that has me worried on what ill do if im not better by session 17 :/
I hope so. Lots of people tell me I wont be able to convince myself because that's what a theme is, maybe they mean when the fear is gone, and its not your theme anymore, then you can convince yourself.
So, no matter how bad it gets when the fear goes away I should stop considering it as an actual possibility and just an irrational thought?
By saying "I'm okay with this" to one of our irrational thoughts we start to take the fear out of it. After a while, you stop fighting and give in and then the thought goes away. I know it sounds counterintuitive but you have to find a way to take the fear away from the thoughts.
So for instance if you think about two people on an airplane and one is afraid to fly because the plane could crash and she would die and is sitting in her seat hyperventilating and the other is also afraid of crashing and dying but gets on the plane and says "okay here I am, what is going to be is going to be and that's it...it is out of my control" This is the person that is able to get a handle on their irrational thinking. By saying scr*ew it basically, she is able to make it through the flight. Maybe she does some controlled breathing to help her (a bit of CBT). Whatever it takes to take the fear away.
Medication helps because it helps us to let the irrational thought go. It helps us to not sit there and dwell on it. It helps us to be like everyone else. If you think John Doe hasn't had the same thought as you, you are wrong. The only difference is they thought it and then dismissed it right away. Lack of certain neurotransmitters in our brains affects our mood and it affects how cells are able to communicate with each other. The medications level out our neurotransmitter levels so that we are more in line with the "normal" people.
No, I haven't seen it.
Ive been in a pretty bad place lately, lots of suicidal thoughts, though im not planning on doing anything, its just that's how bad its gotten. I don't understand acceptance...what good will it do to accept this horrible idea? Do I just stop thinking about it and life goes back to normal? Its so frustrating having to wait so long to see a pdoc, im afraid after this long wait they wont be able to help me.... how can medicine help doubt?