I have OCD and general anxiety. And this idea of potentially having bipolar disorder may very well just be my mind playing tricks on me.
Lately I have been very moody. I am 18 and a freshman in college. I have not been sleeping well, have not been eating well, and I have been under a lot of stress. The past few days I was very very moody. One second I felt optimistic and happy, the next second I felt so so depressed. I am at that time of the menstrual month when I am moody. I think I feel this way almost every month at this time and just forget about it later...also I think some months are much worse than others.
Could this be hormones/OCD or could I be developing bipolar disorder? I know that symptoms commonly begin around this age. I do feel so sad and then happy and then sad again within a matter of minutes, but I do not feel a loss of control. Although I feel optimistic and happy, I do not act on it (such as going on a shopping spree, etc.) I am happy but not exactly "high." Although sometimes when I am joking around or have coffee or get needed sleep I talk very quickly.
What do you think this could be?
For some reason the thought of having bipolar disorder makes me so anxious, I guess because then I would have to take medicine.