Okay so I am going to start off with my life. I am 15 year old male an i am a freshmen that played freshmen footbal and hopefully play Jv. My grades arent so well and I always stress about them. In my house I have a strict Step-Dad and my Mom. A little brother and a sister. And also a brother that is a junior in University and has suffered OCD since end of high school Senior year. I started having OCD and panic attacks since 2 months ago. I never thought it could get worse. About a month ago, I came back from school, locked myself in my room and felt like jacking off. I started looking at porn and there was an advertisement of gay porn on the side. I was curious and i checked it out. Surprisingly, i was aroused and finally orgasmed to it. I was thinking to my self, " Wait, what? Ive liked girls sexually and romanticaly my whole life! Not men! ". So I thought I was just curious. Then i started realizing that i got super horny looking at other men masturbating. I started feeling scared that i was gay. I DONT WANT TO BE GAY !!! I started to get addicted to porn to reasure my self i was not gay. Now when i go to school, my brain thinks like woah that guys cute. But im like wtf? Ive never saud things like that in my life!!! I feel mad at myself when i think that. Im really attracted to women, but im scared of not being attracted to girls anymore. I hang out with my footbal team & i feel somewhat comfortable around them. But when my gay thoughts start rushing in i get scared and think about it for a long time. Whenever someobe jokes around saying " your gayyy ". I say as loud and sure as i can. "No im not, im straight." This is torturing my life. I cant live with these stupid thoughts. Someone please help !!!