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hiv ocd?
Exposer may 20 testing
14 days hiv and full panel neg
20 days hiv full panel neg
33 days rna negative
35 days insti and rna negative
39 days eia hiv and rna negative
49-50 days p24 and hiv insti negative
74 days Eia hiv test and full std panel negative
75 days clearview rapid negative
76 days Hiv inst negative
77 days clearview rapi negative
80 days clearview rapid negative
81 days clearview rapid negative (testing with female partner)
All together I've probably had over 30 and close to 40 rapid test done with 11 week span. Ive been told to stop testing.. but I can't. . I caught a cold at the end of the 10th week.. and my gf did too.. so that's why I'm freaking out and testing like crazy week 10-11... I'm 3 days away from 12 weeks... I can't help to think this cold is hiv related
14 days hiv and full panel neg
20 days hiv full panel neg
33 days rna negative
35 days insti and rna negative
39 days eia hiv and rna negative
49-50 days p24 and hiv insti negative
74 days Eia hiv test and full std panel negative
75 days clearview rapid negative
76 days Hiv inst negative
77 days clearview rapi negative
80 days clearview rapid negative
81 days clearview rapid negative (testing with female partner)
All together I've probably had over 30 and close to 40 rapid test done with 11 week span. Ive been told to stop testing.. but I can't. . I caught a cold at the end of the 10th week.. and my gf did too.. so that's why I'm freaking out and testing like crazy week 10-11... I'm 3 days away from 12 weeks... I can't help to think this cold is hiv related
You don't HAVE HIV.
You have yourself convinced, so there's really no point in continuing to repeat ourselves. If 40 negative tests don't convince you, I'm not sure what will, certainly not us. I have a GOOD bit of experience with HIV and I can tell you irrefutably that your tests don't lie...you do NOT have HIV, period, end of story. There's no rare reason, or strange occurrence that would exclude you from producing antibodies and getting a + result if you were infected. It isn't "hiding" or dormant, you aren't late seroconverting, you are HIV NEGATIVE. I would accept blood from you for my children at this moment. THAT'S how confident I am about what I say.
It's very sad to see someone chasing their tail like you are, for absolutely NO rational reason, and yet every time we mention trying to help yourself, you ignore those comments and change the subject right back to HIV.
You have to help yourself before we'd ever be able to help you, and you won't even try to enter into a conversation about it. I just don't see the point. Just know that you don't have to continue to live in turmoil...there IS help out there for you, which is what you need.
We've done all we can here.
Good luck to you. Take care.
You have yourself convinced, so there's really no point in continuing to repeat ourselves. If 40 negative tests don't convince you, I'm not sure what will, certainly not us. I have a GOOD bit of experience with HIV and I can tell you irrefutably that your tests don't lie...you do NOT have HIV, period, end of story. There's no rare reason, or strange occurrence that would exclude you from producing antibodies and getting a + result if you were infected. It isn't "hiding" or dormant, you aren't late seroconverting, you are HIV NEGATIVE. I would accept blood from you for my children at this moment. THAT'S how confident I am about what I say.
It's very sad to see someone chasing their tail like you are, for absolutely NO rational reason, and yet every time we mention trying to help yourself, you ignore those comments and change the subject right back to HIV.
You have to help yourself before we'd ever be able to help you, and you won't even try to enter into a conversation about it. I just don't see the point. Just know that you don't have to continue to live in turmoil...there IS help out there for you, which is what you need.
We've done all we can here.
Good luck to you. Take care.
I couldn't agree with JGF more. Suicide is NOT a solution to any problem and it is devastating to the survivors, it's VERY selfish.
You HAVE options but you have chosen not to do anything to help yourself. Going from that to suicide seems a bit much doesn't it? When you have many treatment options?
You HAVE options but you have chosen not to do anything to help yourself. Going from that to suicide seems a bit much doesn't it? When you have many treatment options?
You are not reading what people are saying or you are reading it and choosing to ignore the advice. The choice to see a psychologist is yours and yours alone. We cannot fix you but merely give you advice toward the next step on your path to healing. The ball is in your court my friend and ending it isn't the correct path to take.
Seek out HIV meds for what? You don't have HIV.
NO doctor is going to prescribe you an HIV regimen without a confirmed HIV diagnosis (which you have the opposite). Not to mention, HIV treatment comes with its own risks (including liver toxicity among others). Seeking that out would indicate to me that this irrational thinking is so severe that it's causing you to make VERY poor and even quite possibly dangerous decisions that could affect you negatively.
Think about that. You have irrefutable proof that you don't have HIV, but you're willing to cause REAL risks to your health as a way to try to quell your irrational fears? Not good my friend.
You need to seek professional help for your OCD, and soon.
NO doctor is going to prescribe you an HIV regimen without a confirmed HIV diagnosis (which you have the opposite). Not to mention, HIV treatment comes with its own risks (including liver toxicity among others). Seeking that out would indicate to me that this irrational thinking is so severe that it's causing you to make VERY poor and even quite possibly dangerous decisions that could affect you negatively.
Think about that. You have irrefutable proof that you don't have HIV, but you're willing to cause REAL risks to your health as a way to try to quell your irrational fears? Not good my friend.
You need to seek professional help for your OCD, and soon.
Many people get colds yet you choose to think yours is different, Can you reply to this comment I posted last week? Why do you think millions of tests on other people were correct but EVERY one that was done on you that comes back negative is not correct?
"HIV testing has been around for 3 decades, so I think they have got it down pat and always did know how to do it, since you NEVER hear of a negative testing person who actually has it and infects a bunch of people. That means you do not have it. You should ask yourself why you think the hiv docs don't know as much about hiv as you think you do."
"HIV testing has been around for 3 decades, so I think they have got it down pat and always did know how to do it, since you NEVER hear of a negative testing person who actually has it and infects a bunch of people. That means you do not have it. You should ask yourself why you think the hiv docs don't know as much about hiv as you think you do."
Well I got tested... to make sure... it was negative.. but maybe I should ask for hiv meds.. just in case I have it.. my gf has elbow pain with a tingly middle finger... linda pulsing feeling... that's a hiv symptom
NONE of those are HIV symptoms anyway.
This is an OCD forum not an HIV forum...so what have you done to address this?
This is an OCD forum not an HIV forum...so what have you done to address this?
I'm going crazy... I know somethings wrong.. I feel that test yesterday wasn't conclusive... I still have a crazy runny nose... phlegm is constantly building up... I think its the hiv breaking down my system and keeping me sick
I know somethings wrong.. I kinda feel like these teet don't work and they want people to be hiv positive so the corporations can collect more money off of sick ppl
You're thinking is very paranoid and irrational.
If your premise was right, you'd be getting false + so that they could treat people.
You're thinking is very paranoid and irrational.
If your premise was right, you'd be getting false + so that they could treat people.
So yessterday 85 days since that scarring indecent happen to me.. I got a oraquick rapid blood test. It came back negative 12 weeks and 1 day.. but the oraquick blood sample is so little.. I'm afraid that it wasn't enough blood for an accurate reading... I'm still stick.. runny nose.. I feel a pressure in my throat.. phlegm build up... I know somethings wrong.. I kinda feel like these teet don't work and they want people to be hiv positive so the corporations can collect more money off of sick ppl
Your MANY HIV tests prove you didn't get HIV from your situation.
To continue to test is only going to fuel your anxiety. If you're not infected, your GF can't be either..you can't give her something you don't have. Not to mention, a rash at this time would not be related to HIV. ARS related symptoms would never show up this late. Her rash has nothing to do with HIV.
If you cannot put this behind you (HIV), then get some help. You don't have it. The testing is a compulsion. You don't need anymore tests.
I have a slightly different take on the situation. While it may not have been right for her to do what she did if she could clearly see you were messed up, YOU put yourself in that position, going there and then incapacitating yourself. Who knows what you could have told her in your stupor? You may have directed her to get on top of you and have sex with you. My advice would be to not waste your time with this anymore...don't contact the parlor anymore. Accept your part in this, and learn from it, it was very irresponsible behavior on YOUR part.
Again, I'm not excusing her possible taking advantage of you, but you just are not able to say with certainty what happened because you made a choice to become very intoxicated after going there. What did you take anyway?
Make this a lesson learned and get on with life.
To continue to test is only going to fuel your anxiety. If you're not infected, your GF can't be either..you can't give her something you don't have. Not to mention, a rash at this time would not be related to HIV. ARS related symptoms would never show up this late. Her rash has nothing to do with HIV.
If you cannot put this behind you (HIV), then get some help. You don't have it. The testing is a compulsion. You don't need anymore tests.
I have a slightly different take on the situation. While it may not have been right for her to do what she did if she could clearly see you were messed up, YOU put yourself in that position, going there and then incapacitating yourself. Who knows what you could have told her in your stupor? You may have directed her to get on top of you and have sex with you. My advice would be to not waste your time with this anymore...don't contact the parlor anymore. Accept your part in this, and learn from it, it was very irresponsible behavior on YOUR part.
Again, I'm not excusing her possible taking advantage of you, but you just are not able to say with certainty what happened because you made a choice to become very intoxicated after going there. What did you take anyway?
Make this a lesson learned and get on with life.
Did you become a medical practitioner and diagnose her normal rash into HIV? Perhaps you should read this book. The Hypochondriac's Guide to Life. And Death. It shows you there are hundreds of rare diseases (and some not so rare) that you can get. Why focus on HIV when there are hundreds of others to worry about, such as getting leprosy if a leper sits beside you on a bus and accidentally contacts you?
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At this point a pimple on yor face would be an HIV pimple. You need to let it go. Yo need therapy because I dont see you developing the tools you need on your own.
Well now she has rashes on her arm... but I mean.. she's prone to getting rashes... but it looks like an hiv rash
You or your gf and you probably caught the other ones cold. If you both had hiv you wouldn't both simultaneously break out with a cold exactly 10 weeks later.
HIV testing has been around a long time, so I think they have got it down pat, since you never hear of a negative testing person who gets it and infects a bunch of people. That means you DO NOT have it. You should ask yourself why you think the hiv docs don't know as much about hiv as you think you do.
Write back if you are still worried about it.
HIV testing has been around a long time, so I think they have got it down pat, since you never hear of a negative testing person who gets it and infects a bunch of people. That means you DO NOT have it. You should ask yourself why you think the hiv docs don't know as much about hiv as you think you do.
Write back if you are still worried about it.
I'm trying to find laws.... but its so difficult to find something... I thought my gf was infected.. but she testing with me and she was negative at like 7-8 weeks... I was relieved. . But my anxiety and ocd of testing came back
You have called the experts and they are saying you don't need to test. If you cannot put this behind you with your negative results, then you need to think about seeing a therapist to help you through this.
Here is some perspective for you regarding HIV infection. If you were to take a needle filled with HIV tainted blood and poke yourself with it, you have a 0.3% chance of becoming HIV positive...less than 1 percent. It is difficult to get which is good because if it wasn't, then we would all be infected by now.
I think that this is more than just HIV anxiety. You were assaulted. Can you file a legal complaint with the establishment?
Here is some perspective for you regarding HIV infection. If you were to take a needle filled with HIV tainted blood and poke yourself with it, you have a 0.3% chance of becoming HIV positive...less than 1 percent. It is difficult to get which is good because if it wasn't, then we would all be infected by now.
I think that this is more than just HIV anxiety. You were assaulted. Can you file a legal complaint with the establishment?
I talked to a hiv counselr at AHF aids healthcare foundation.. he said hiv would not cause a cold at basically week ten... and said I should of stop testing after my first naat test was negative.. I took a hiv test that day too.. basically 76 days one day before 11 weeks.. he said I don't even need to test at week 12.... I'm so scared
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