Ran out of Paroxetine, and the nightmares waking me from sleep are horrible

[ymouszanon]

I've been on Paxil, i.e. Paroxetine for about 6 years now.  I ran out about 5 days ago.  As has happened in the past after quitting Paxil my sleep is interrupted with such stressful nightmares.  I mean I wake up and I am either screaming and my heart rate goes sky high.  I am a about 3 days from when i can get another refill.  I don't think i can make it and have so much to do this week during the day.  When I call my doctors office and especially on call, they go berzerk.  I really think it is not so much the doctors but they are under a lot of pressure from the war on drugs getting its tentacles into the doctor patient relationship.  I thought the fact that I was on clonazepam would help(for so many years i have been rx'd benzos, my doctor says you will have convulsions--don't i know from personal experience--if you stop klonopin.  he also says at my age benzo withdrawal will make the rest of your life hell).  And now you are really going to get on my case i bet when i add this.  I truly have arthritis too and am on only 3, 5mg vicodin a day.  vicodin(hydrocodone) usually gives me nice dreams when i take my last pill at bedtime. but it does nothing to rid these extremely stressful paxil(paroxetine) withdrawal sleep nightmares.

I mean these dreams are so vivid and unlike scarry nightmares have too much to do with the reality of my bitter life.
I am afraid to go to sleep.  I am exhausted and i have so much to get done this week.  

It seems through experience and comparing ssri withdrawal to benzo or opioid withdrawal, the latter two are dangerous especially the benzos.  My god, i am sick of being treated like a child when on occassion, like currently, i have only over used for about three days.  I am three days short of my refill.  But again i have vital business to take care of.  its sunday.  should i take a chance and call physician on call?  would they give me paxil at the ER?  i dread going to mental health crisis because i fear they might make me an inpatient against my will.  in a mental health inpatient unit thats when the hell really starts.  these stupid shrinks thinks everyone that is admitted must be put on a torture drug, i.e. an antipsychotic(neuroleptic). those drugs should not even be given to crazy people they are so inhumane.

My doctor is a regular general practitioner thank god.  and actually she is a young female and is really nice.  but if i call the doctor or nurse practioner on call, they are real ********.  I mean i got to clean my cluttered house for section 8 inspection and there is no way i am gonna even get close to making it presentable by wednesday. help!

any advice would be most appreciated

[ymouszanon]

(preface: go to end of my comment to get to the main point.  i have a habit of rambling and no i'm not diagnosed as insane)


First of all i don't overuse paxil.  there is no point to it.  its not like you can get high off it and i am not into getting high.

No. My doctor not telling me cut my paroxetine in half per month from 40 to 20 by breaking the pill in half.  So i pick up the bottle from pharmacy not looking at the rx.  So after 15 days i look in my bottle and say, what the hell?

I mean several times in the last ten years she had no problem giving me an early script of clonazepam(its a benzo like xanax, ativan, valium, etc).  I mean most people on benzos over use every other month.  and going off them is a medical emergency.  its more dangerous than going off xanax...but anyway back to paxil(generic: paroxetine)

I mean even taking a half i have the most stressful and vivid dreams i feel like im going to have a heart attack.  and after a week every time you take a step, it feels like shocks going up to your head.

I mean im happy i got a good family doctor who knows i hate shrinks for good reason.  but now she's getting pressure from her medical clinic she works for. evidently they don't want any of their doctors to rx any "psychiatric" meds.  I like her a lot, and would hate to lose her

so now they tell me to go to one of two really ****** mental health organizations and as soon as i walk in they'll ***** me and give me a script.  fat chance.  a regular e.r. by law has to give you at least a days dose of whatever drug your on.

If it wasn't for psychiatry torturing me with neuroleptics(e.g.abilify, seroquel, olanzapine, haldol, etc) for no god damn reason except to use someone with a nervous breakdown(not a guy who is violent)as quinnea pig and tried neuroleptics on me.  first few days in the nice mental health center i was feeling as good as new and future looked bright.  then after putting the torture(neuroleptics or antipsychotics)into me, i couldn't stop walking around for weeks.  the only thing that saved me was bringing me down to er every night and getting my vitals back to normal and phenobarbital in the ***, the only two hours a sleep i got each day but the stupid **** shrink kept giving me the ****.  A few years later a compassionate shrink but me on xanax.  And i've been on benzos ever since.  im old school and at 60 yrs of age benzo rehab and recovery would mean suffering till the end of my life.

so i quess i should be happy im just going off paxil.  but at my age with so many physical problems, especially no more prostate and arthritis any little thing different is upsetting, different like going off paxil.

BUT STILL THE MAIN QUESTION IS THIS: ARE THERE ANY HERBALS, OTC, VITAMINS, HOME REMEDIES, ETC THAT HELP WITH QUITTING PAXIL(GENERIC NAME IS PAROXETINE)

I would be most grateful for any advice.

[JGF25]

So let me get this straight....you over used your paxil which is why you ran out early?  I'm not concerned about the other stuff.  I take klonpin once a day myself and I'm sure I'm addicted.  You are more than likely going through paxil withdrawal and I'm not sure why they just couldn't call in a prescription for you unless you have a habit of overusing your medication.