HOCD!

[mystery1077]

I’ve HOCD for a while now. My compulsions consist of asking others for reassurance. Checking my behaviors and activities to see if they look gay. But recently despite all my insane thoughts, I know  I’m genuinely not gay. But my brain is trying so hard to convince myself I am. It’s telling me to come out. Which brings back anxiety bc you only have anxiety about coming out if you’re gay. It’s not the thought of coming out to my mom because I know she’ll be accepting it’s just something about it. Like being so vulnerable. Is it normal to get anxiety while coming out videos and such. Or is this a red flag?

[justchilllll]

Hi! Personally I think the anxiety might be because of the vulnerability. If you were worried about the repercussions of coming out and the reactions of your family members than that would for sure be a red flag. The anxiety most likely comes from the fact that you’ve been scared about be homosexual for  so long and the fact that coming out would be “proof” you’re gay.