I had been suffering OCD all my life, started when I was 16 years old with the HIV virus and after 9/11 continue with the anthrax, the dog rabies and blood and HIV, every 3-4 years I have a crisis and sometimes end in a psychiatric hospital because I cant control it, is any recommendation you can give me?...I had expend most of my life on therapist and psyquiatric doctors that sent me meds that only help to make me gain weight - 30 pounds- that cause me more health problems given that I have fibromyalgia, now I will start EMDR because I also suffer PTSD, severe panic attacks, depression and anxiety disorders, properly im driving myself and my family crazy, they avoid me, ignore me, insult me, call me crazy but I cant find the help I need, im desperate and exhausted of this life.