I’ve had HOCD for about 8 months. I’ve been diagnosed with OCD by a licensed professional. My HOCD was pretty bad in the summer but it seemed to settle down when I got intrusive about being arrested/ committing a crime. Which left me mortified. Recently the HOCD is coming back stronger than ever. I remember awhile ago I watched a video about this girl who said the moment she realized she was bisexual her heart and mind were on the same page and she broke down in tears. Recently I’d been having intrusives and my brain said I’m bisexual. I felt weird saying it but it was a bad weird because for some reason it felt normal most likely because my erp therapy was about being okay with being bi or gay. Now my mind has been just like it was when my HOCd patterns first started. My anxiety is so bad which hasn’t happened since my lexapro kicked in. I’ve been on Lexapro for 7 months and I’m on the lowest dosage. Should I up my dosage and continue to practice exposures or am I genuinely gay?