Ever since about 2 months ago, i have been having weird hocd thoughts. It all began when i was out drinking and my friends kept telling my girlfriend i was gay. Later when me and my girlfriend were going to bed she asked me if i was and she genuinley believed them.. I kept telling her no and for some reason she didnt believe me.
Then about a week later i took lsd (bad idea i know). When i took it everything was fine until about 7 hours in. All of the sudden my mind was plagued by thoughts of "your gay", "youve been gay your whole life" etc.. And now lately i have been reevaluating my life and thinking that i have been acting gay my whole life which is really freaking me out. I have constant, unwanted sexual gay thoughts which keep popping in my head for no reason. I have been comparing sex with women and how sex with a guy would be like. Im never turned on by these thoughts either. Never been turned on by gay porn. I have had bad porn habits in the past also which might have an effect on this. But the rush of these bad thoughts at 19 just doesnt make sense if i was actually gay. If i was actually gay, wouldnt i have known it for awhile now?