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How do I not act on my violent intrusive thoughts?

I am having intrusive thoughts about taking a Tylenol overdose in a staggered multi day fashion because I heard if you take several smaller overdoses you are more likely to die than one big overdose.  I don't want to die.  I have a lot to live for.  The thoughts have gone so far that I bought the Tylenol.  These thoughts replaced the ones about drinking antifreeze a week ago.  Going to the hospital is not an option.  I just returned to work after a leave from being in a psychiatric hospital and doing an outpatient program for my schizoaffective disorder.  I want to get on with my life.  I am afraid I will take the pills go into liver failure and die.  I don't want that.  I have family who love me and would really miss me.  I can't bear to tell them I am having emotional problems again.  Does anyone know how I can turn these thoughts off?
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I am so very sorry you are going through this!  The main answer I know of is treatment for the psychiatric issues.  Medication, psychotherapy, support groups.  I so hope you have this in your life.  You are too valuable to this world to be feeling this way.  There are numbers to call at any time of day with a person at the other end.  Suicide prevention numbers really help.  I'll be thinking about you.  Please let me know how you are doing.
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Thank you for you kind response.  I am going to Emotion Anonymous meeting which seem to help.  I see a therapist once a week and this is my last week of intensive outpatient program (IOP).  I plan to give them the bottle of Tylenol today.  I don't need it tempting me.  This weekend what was helpful to me to keep my mind distracted was to go back to work after a 2 months leave of absence.  I am just going to have to find more things to do to get rid of the intrusive thoughts.  I agree therapy will help.
I get intrusive thoughts about suicide too but it's been a year and I haven't acted on them. We have a ton of control even though we think we don't.
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