Hello, I posted this question the anxiety section, and I got great help from the people there. They recommended that I check here for further help. Before a week or two a go, I've had no question on my sexuality. I've dealt with anxiety for about a year now, but I've gotten through the worst, and I have been living fine with it. I've had friends who were gay, read about gay people, etc. None of it bothered me before.
Recently, my friends were joking around and said they thought I was gay. This bothered me, and I asked myself if I was in my head, I began debating it back and forth. Was I? Was I really gay? I was sure that I wasn't, I've always liked girls for as long as I can remember. I've never had any thoughts about being with a guy, nor did I want to. I tried to put the thoughts off, and they didn't bother me much. Later, one of my friends confessed his feelings for me. Immediately I thought "oh god, he thinks I'm gay. He confessed to me, what do I do?" I started feeling the symptoms I get when a panic attack comes on. I don't feel any attraction to the guy, I like girls, and I even have feelings for one at this moment.
After that, I spent the night questioning myself. "What if I've been gay, but I've been hiding it. What's going on with me? Am I losing my mind? I don't want to be gay." I kept repeating to myself. Things just got worse later, I had trouble looking at guys the same way, and everything just seemed wrong to me. As the days passed, girls didn't attract me as much, and I felt like I was losing the feelings I had for the girl I currently like. It felt as if my sexual attraction to girls was diminishing. I had no clue what to do. Then I received some help from others, and they said they didn't think I was gay. This gave me a bit of a relief, but every time I heard the word "gay, homosexual" or anything pertaining the homosexuality or sexual feelings. The confusion arose again.
Recently, I just don't feel anything. I don't feel any attraction to either, so I want to know what is wrong with me? I want to like girls again like I used to, I don't want to be scared anymore. Why is this happening?