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Living in hell called hocd
I posted my suffering story earlier so lets get tot be point 4 years ago i used to disguise as a guy and trick girls on an online forum i did that trick by a company of my friend for tricking girls since it was forbidden for us to have boy friend nor talk to a guy thats what we did i actually enjoyed talking to a guy more than a girl bc its boring also i didnt even what is sex until 6 months ago if i did i wont be doing that OF COURSE i just kind of wanted to know how is it when girl and a boy have sex also i had a high sex drive which made me get turned on by anything related to sex but now im not turned on by anything but boys i never had a same sex fantasies FYI i had the all stuff going on at 12.5 years old please help
Thanks man. Sorry I didnt mean to invade your privacy. I just really need some help with this. I know I am not gay but these thoughts keep telling me I am. I just need help. Thanks again.
um hello there just to make you know you just commented on a personal post you can creat on your own post but its not a major problem anyways , I'd say asking people for reassurance isnt gonna help but you need to seek help the fastest you can before it goes bad and the arousal you dont enjoy is groinal response caused by fear and anxiety go on turn on the tv watch and face guys admit they are attractive but in a non-sexual way face your fear before it overcomes you
Hi I am 18 years old and a senior In high school. Over the last two years, I have been experiencing intrusive gay thoughts. This is driving me Crazy because I have been attracted to girls and Only girls my whole life. The more I think the thoughts, the more real they feel and no matter how hard I try, they will not get out of my head. To make matters worse, recently I have started feeling arousal from these thoughts. It has gotton so bad, that I am afraid to turn on the TV or watch my favorite movies because I am afraid I will think a guy is attractive or feel aroused. I know i like girls and this may be personal but I masturbate to straight porn. So wy am I having these thoughts. From the moment I wake up in the morning until the moment I go to sleep this is on my mind. I have recently looked into HOCD forums and I can relate to what some people are going through. But my mind keeps telling me I am gay. Not to mention the arousal. Also I have never had a girlfriend and I am depressed/stressed so I am wondering if that may have something to do with why I have these thoughts. Bottom line is, do you guys think this is HOCD or DENIAL?? plz respond. I have posted in other HOCD forums and no one has responded. Any response will be appreciated :)
Then you need to find somebody else. You have to like the doctor you are seeing and obviously this person was not for you.
I stopped seeing her she keep diagnosing me with weird stuff i know im not suffering from such as schizophrenia which is i know im not suffering from she doesnt pay attention to what am i saying so yeah
When is your next therapy appointment? I think you may need to see your therapist more often until you have mastered letting these thoughts go.
As if in girl and a boy in the same body first i thought and obsessed about being a trans then it came to being once a guy once a girl and im hating myself bc of it
Opening up other ocd's for me to have like she said you might be a guy shes not even the slightest giving attention to the main problem I'm over the hocd problem now but had another intrusive thought of being bigender theres nothig cslled bigender ocd which made my anxiety alot higher i dont wanna be transitive i domt wanna be bigender
At your age, your hormones are going haywire. So when you overanalyze certain situations, you are getting a false reading in your brain. You worry if you get a feeling down there and then you worry when you don't. The consistency is the worry.
You actually had a therapist say you were in denial? This is the thing. If you can see yourself down the road in a relationship with another woman that includes intimacy, then you are gay. If you cannot though, then you cannot possibly be gay. It isn't something you turn off and on. What else is your therapist doing for you other than confusing you?
You actually had a therapist say you were in denial? This is the thing. If you can see yourself down the road in a relationship with another woman that includes intimacy, then you are gay. If you cannot though, then you cannot possibly be gay. It isn't something you turn off and on. What else is your therapist doing for you other than confusing you?
She said I may be in denial ... <|3 If I was gay or bi I would be proud but I'm not afraid of society nor rejection that's what made me relieved also thank you so much for helping me also every single ocd sufferer from this curse are alot like me now my wrists are scarred as shi*
OCD kicks up a notch higher when we are stressed. I am going to guess that something in your life became stressful and then the thoughts started. Key in on the fact that you "forgot it" once. What that means is that it was nothing more then something to pass the time and have a good laugh. We don't wake up one day and become gay. You can't even talk to a guy where you live it sounds like and hormones are running amok at your age. Try your best to say "it was a joke" when the thought pops up and then busy yourself with another task. I am also going to assume you cannot see a psychologist where you live either?
Thank you so much for the reply I'm almost 16 now and I have forgot it since it happened but since my ocd started every single memory came back
It is too difficult for me to go back through all the posts since I have been away on vacation. What I am getting is that you are living in a country where talking to the opposite sex is frowned upon. You disguised yourself as a guy and talked to girls online for the fun of it. Sounds like something you and your friend did to have a laugh. How old are you now and what happened to make this thought pop into your head?
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