Hello all. I have written before on this forum regarding HOCD, but I still have a few questions.
On my previous post I shared my story but I'm not really looking for a diagnosis this time. I just have a few questions about what I'm going through.
So I am a girl in my teen years. This week I recently developed my first crush on a boy in THREE years. I wasn't able to feel anything for boys because of my condition. I was so happy I almost cried. Haha. However, I am now more confused then ever. Does this mean I am bisexual, or does this mean I'm getting better? I really hope I am getting better. What if I am attracted to girls and I leave a boy for a girl? I feel like I am attracted to every girl I see and like all my girl mates. Is this even possible. Is it possible for someone to think they have HOCD for three years and then suddenly become, or realize, they are bisexual? It scares me because I know some people figure out they are bisexual later in life. Also, one more question. What causes a backdoor spike? A few months ago I read something that I found disturbing and reasured me that I just must be gay. After that I had no more anxiety but still had intrusive thoughts. Is this a backdoor spike? Thank you again. Any answers are always so appreciated and helpful to me.