Obsessed with HIV...ruining my life!

[jennykate]

Hello, everyone I feel I may need to start posting here! I know I have anxiety, but I think I may an extreme cause of OCD...my fear is HIV!! I think of it 24/7 and it has completely taken over my life! I have been tested about 4 times this year all negative thank the Lord, but I feel like I'm doomed to get it!

This all started back in 05 when I first had sex! I had protected sex, but I had convinced myself I had HIV! I have been struggling w this for 5yrs now! I have even had dreams, premonitions about it! Do u think that its just my anxiety which has made me think like that or do u think those dreams or "premonitions" r signs of things to come?! I'm really losing my mind & I'm sad!!

I only have sex w my bf and we both have been tested, but my thoughts sometimes make we think omg my bf could have it when he clearly doesn't.

Anyone can give advice it would be nice!! I just want to talk to some ppl who r battling OCD.

[ClearedHealth]

Who is not afraid of HIV?!  Your fear is rational.  But just don't be too afraid because if you are not anywhere exposed to it.  And I don't think have OCD either.  So don't let a non problem  become a problem.

[PurellGirl]

It's your OCD. Plain and simple. As long as you and your boyfriend have both been tested and are staying faithful to each other there is no reason to worry about contracting HIV.

I'm assuming you don't do drugs (correct?), so there's no reason to worry about contracting HIV through sharing of needles.

So all in all, it's just your OCD which is causing you this extreme anxiety. I know that its easier said than done to say to just not think about it. I know from personal experience that its just not that easy.

There are many people on this board willing to listen to your problems whenever you feel like venting. We've been where you've been and will try to help as much as we can.

[lessonlearned58]

i have ocd as well and one of my biggest fears is hiv. It *****