Really really need help..URGENTLY

[boywonder1234]

hey guys,i know this may sound stupid but please take this seriously....

a few days ago i posted this

"Hey guys,I have OCD so my mind latches onto anything that WOULD scare me! Anyways I had an OCD about getting people pregnant...which is just scary...

And because I used to MASTURBATE in the bath quiet rarely,and climaxed whilst inside (sick ino,old habit) I was wondering could I have gotten my MUM or AUNTY pregnant with their children :(

I have asked everywhere and people/sources keep saying NO you have not got anyone pregnant by that,but I'm still very anxious and scared? What if I have...I feel to go and kill myself right at this moment....

(I never did sex education,so be kind to me)

99% of sources said no,u canget pregnant that way! But what if some sperm was left in the bath...or in the water...cud it swim inside the vagina through the water?! :( so scared right now"

this put my mind to rest for a while.......but

my OCD is not letting this gooo ONE BIT..especially because i have 4 year old sister..and my mind is saying i could of got my mum pregnant by this (4 years ago)

i can not sleep,im considering killing myself because this is to much to bear :(

i rarely ever masturbated in the bath anyways.

i spiked again ( a spike is when someone with ocd sees or reads somethign that makes them fear even more)  anyways i read this "legend" online that this BOY was masturbating in the bath and CLIMAXED,as he did his mum rushed in the bath room and got his son out off the bath (she was ruushing to work or something) and she bathed in the exact same water he climaxed in,and the story said that he got his mum pregnant..but it says that this story is a LEGEND..so i dont know whether to believe this or not?

i asked ALOT of my friends and they said i have nothing to worry about,everyone mastrubates in the bath..BUT MY MIND STILL WONT KEEP WORRYING..JUST BECAUSE I HAVE A BABY SISTER (WELL SHES 4) i am really scared at the moment and i cant even look at my mum or sister properly..i know/doubt my mum would ever bath in the same water as me (shes a clean freak)

but what IF I LEFT SOME SPERM IN THE BATH...and it somehow swam into her vagina????! this is frightening stuff :( and i just cant stop worrying :( thinking that im a flipping dad...i want to kill myself and i dont know anymore,i cant live like this....worryign 24/7 id rather be dead,and im considering it:(:(

[emilyjonesjj]

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[monica123434]

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[blahwhatdoido]

And as for the dead part....being able to be on the outside for once I can honestly say dont do it. But I understand how you are feeling on the inside bc I'm feeling that way also with my current obsession. Infant I've wrote about it and that's how I've came to this website. Just an hour I said the same thing about being dead. Just no it's not real and you're ok and you just need some therapy to figure out how to get to the bottom of this so you can calm down. Everyone who is trying to talk to me is talking about erp and cbt therapy. So I know I need a therapist to help me with these. I need a therapist to diagnose me ocd in the first place so my stupid head will stop saying it can't be ocd. I get how you feel. Don't do it. Talk to a therapist but in the mean time talk with the people you love. They will get frustrated trust me because no matter how much reassurance we will get it will keep bothering us. but just understand why they are frustrated. It's bc they love you and hate to see you hurting. I don't even know you and it hurts me seeing that you feel this way. It's okay. I promise.

[blahwhatdoido]

Sorry I didn't realize you already knew you have ocd. I must have overlooked that. Sorry! But still everything else I said I still mean.

[blahwhatdoido]

Sounds like OCD to me. OCD latches on to fears. What you are freaking out about most people have gotten maybe panicky before but it wasn't a big deal to them and they could see the absurdity...however when you have OCD you can't. You feel it's real and that that is real life no matter what anyone else tells you. Trust me. For awhile I had something like this and I can see now its stupid and where it came from. Ever since I was a little a girl I convinced and obsessed myself that sex before marriage was wrk g. Well I started thinking differently when I got older bc I realized people are people and we have hormones and we arent bad if we give into them. We aware normal. However evn though I knew that in my head I always thought god would condemn me and punish me by getting me pregnant if I ever did. So I was so scared even the first time I would do have sex is get pregnant so I avoided it. I would get caught up in the moment with a few of my exs and have the desire to but I always didn't bc I would freak myself out and think I'd have serious repercussions like getting pregnant or get depressed and regret it for the rest of my life bc I kept hearing these horror stories. I was even scared to get naked in a pool with one of my exes. I also made us wash our hands with soap not once but another time or until i felt ok and put hand sanatizer on when we would fool around. it even got so bad that i started making sure i went first so i wouldnt worry about if he went first that i would have stuff on my hands and accidentally touch myself down there and get pregnant. Well finally I did have sex with a person I've never loved anyone so much with in my life. Of course I have ocd and have had many other obsessions and this has effected out relationship greatly right now and we are not good...but that's besides the point. Anyways after we did I kept obsessing was that the right thing to do? Oh no im gonna get pregnant. We used a condom and we did all the steps i do to make sure i wont get pregnant. Well I have irregular periods so this didn't help and I insisted that I wasn't having my period bc something went wrong and I got pregnant...I even did this several times before when we would fool around bc I thought the fooling around was why I was late bc I thought it got me pregnant. Well to sum it up....I wasn't pregnant and had it. But I was terrified to again. But finally my ex calmed down enough about it and I was willing to do it again but it was hard for me to enjoy bc I was freaking out. Then I was late and again it happened. Plus getting stressed delays a period too so it doesn't help. Well then we had it again and this time I was freaked. My ex accidentally thought the condom had broken....sonic started to freak. He then looked back at it and it turns out it really wasnt and he was so excited bc he thought it would calm me down....but it didn't no matter what I was still convinced it broke and I was gonna be pregnant. I couldn't sleep for days and it got really bad to where I really just wanted to die. So he took me to Walgreens and we bought the morning after and I took it.  Even though I took it I still felt so guilty and couldn't deal with myself and couldn't sleep bc I still felt somewhere in me that I might still be pregnant. I finally told my dad...weird i know bc im a girl but its bc I don't really have a mom, He has dealt with me in this state many a times bc I've obsessed over a lot and done this. Finally he told me once I was done getting it all out that he doubted I was but would buy me a test to make me feel better. I took the test and it came out neg. I was so happy and felt so calm. But still I felt if I ever did again god would punish me and I would get pregnant. I felt this was a warning from him...well again I avoided it and my bf at the time did bc he knew it wasn't worth it. But one day for some reason I wanted it to feel the closeness between me and him and we did it. I still felt maybe and anxiety but right now I have another fear more intense than this one so I've been focussing on this one instead...that's the thing about ocd it likes to make you freak out about one thing so much where other things don't seem to have any effect on you. Of course I haven't gone to a therapist yet bc I've always been embarrassed to but everyone who knows me who ive talked about my problems with says I have ocd. So bottom line what I'm saying is you seem like you are having it too and you might try talking to someone to see if you do. I'm not an expert though by any means but try it. When you start talking to someone you might realize you' might have done this before with a bunch of other stuff too. You aren't weird or not alone.