Transgender or ocd?!

[Ocdsufferer133]

I have Hocd and pure o but recently have been experiencing something else.... I have ALWAYS been a big tomboy, I feel uncomfortable in some girly things but love dresses but sometimes I think I feel uncomfortable in them! I love makeup and some other girly things and also don't want to be that preppy girl that wears all pink and only hangs around all preppy, gitly girly girls. 70% of my friends are boys and I love alot of things I guess you could call boyish. It's giving me anxiety because I was looking at dresses online and thought "I feel uncomfortable in dresses, I must be transgender!" I hate it! I just don't know what to do anymore, I feel like just giving up and ending it all because if I do give up then I won't have to deal with this anymore. And I'm scared to look up symptoms of being transgender because what if I have them?! Ugh! I don't know what I would do. I need some advice! :(

[Ocdsufferer133]

I am 13..... I still have hocd just as bad as tocd. I am supposed to see a therapist but I don't feel comfortable telling someone about my hocd or tocd.....

[JGF25]

Hi there.  I once felt the same way you do.  I was embarassed to tell the therapist what I was actually thinking.  I told her this and you know what she said?  She said "There is nothing you can tell me that I haven't already heard before" and then I let it all out.  You need to discuss this with the therapist because you need to get help for it.  Some strategies on how to deal with the thoughts.  Trust me when I tell you that he/she will not judge you.  If you look on this forum you will see that most of the posts are about HOCD.  It is very, very common and whoever you see will have heard it before.  Let me know how it goes.  

[JGF25]

The first clue is HOCD turning into TOCD.  This is the usual path for people with OCD.  We find new ways to torture ourselves.  have you seen a psychologist?   If not, can you see one?  Not sure how old you are.