It looks like you are suffering from hocd which is a form of ocd, but we cannot diagnose you here, you will have to consult a psychiatrist for proper diagnosis and medication.
Hi, yes I can't diagnose you but hopefully i can help. I know exactly how you're feeling, I've been there before and at some times i still am in your situation. all ocd is based around is uncertainty, doubt and fear. it can be scary to think that something so fundamentally simple as your sexuality is not as you expected, and the uncertainty is what causes the obsession because your mind will do whatever it can to doubt yourself. the first thing you should do is stop trying to argue with the thought that tells you you are gay. just leave it be. if it tells you you're bi, agree with it. it sounds like the wrong thing to do but you need to become less scared of the thought. there is no point in telling yourself that you're straight because you'll always find a loophole. learn to adapt to a life that isn't certain. keep posting if you need some more help because i know consulting a psychiatrist is not always possible for some people, although it would be a good solution, and try not to google things. google can be your worst enemy with this ocd because it will just take you round and round in circles. and try not to come on here too much either because it will only give you sort term relief.
I don't want to be okay with calling myself bi. I'm scared that I'll even get used to hearing that word and categorize myself as that. I don't want to be. I only see myself with a man in the future but I always pretty girls but I think it might just be because girls are always wearing make up and stuff? I'm so obsessed with if I look good and what my body looks like that maybe that's why i look at other girls bodies? I've only ever had crushes on guys and I get so emotionally attached to guys but I can't just get turned on by a picture of a hot guy but I can with a girl and that's what scares me the most. like does that just happen sometimes? I only want sex with a guy. a girl naked would be gross. I can't even try to picture myself doing that. recently if a hang out with a girl friend, I'm fine hangout with them like I used to be but then something will make me think of the idea of kissing someone so then I get freaked out and can't stop thinking about it and I don't enjoy hanging out until the thought goes away and then I'm happy. I phsych my selves into things a lot and I think that may be the problem except for the turning on thing is what makes me have my doubts?? ik so confused! I just want it to end! thank you for your time
It's completely normal to think someone of the same sex is good looking. So don't worry about that at all, to the best of my knowledge it sounds like hocd to me. Trust me, I had hocd but after getting proper treatment I realized just how absurd the thoughts were. These thoughts can still come back to bother me if I let them, but after leaening cbt, I can control these thoughts so they don't take over
ok..listen the thing is in your head...bi is not a bad idea ..but i think being a lesbian will not and cannot satisify a girl....i just want a penis in order to get satisfaction....the feeling of taking it inside me...gives me relaxation...something that i cant explain..ok that is normal..but weird thing is i love the butt of my boyfriend..i love the heavy back of guys...even my little bro..he is so cute with his back and my boyfriend too....this is weird na??