Hi all first post I am starting to think I have a disease and need to get treated but not sure if there is really a cure or it this is ocd , 2 issues one I am obsessed with going to massage all though not involved in anything more that hand jobs and few bits and pieces but then I have so much guilt and also think I will get hiv etc and go on several forums clarifying things and making my life hell and doing tests when it’s not needed keeping away from family etc 2n issue is I get a trigger to drink and i am not alcoholic I just feel if I am
Stressed or did something good at work need to drink and have good food and when I drink the first problem magnifies
Pls do help as I want to end this misery