About a month and a half now of non-stop introspection. Still unable to have an uninterrupted thought without acknolwdging that im having it. Read up on hyperawarness ocd and that seems to be what ive developed.
My main fear is really regarding this inability to focus or distract myself and its permanence. Its as if I cant stop overanalysing the fact that I'm overanalysing. In the rare seconds where my mind isn't preoccupied with my affliction I will catch myself and then be right back in the cycle again. My fixation revolves sometimes around how I'm feeling or the future implications but mostly is focused on the fact that I'm fixated. It like I'm obsessed with the fact that I'm obsessed nothing distracts me as even when I'm talking or reading my awareness is constantly shifting inwards as if to remind myself that I'm hyperaware. Just looking for people that can relate and hopefully people that have been here and gotten out of this obsessive hell. I should clarify that it is literally all the time. Even as I type this im still taking my focus of it every couple seconds to go in my mind your not really distracted nothing you ever do will distract you, you are stuck like this forever.