Hi guys. So I’m a 21 y/o female and I’ve been going insane! I’ve always liked boys! Always I’ve got a amazing boyfriend. One day I had a random thought “what if I’m gay” and from then on I’ve been to hell and back, my anxiety is through the roof! I constantly tell myself I’m not gay. I get freaked out when I’m excited to see my friends incase that means I’m gay. I’ve never once even had an urge to kiss a female, I’ve always wanted to be like some girls but never with them. Whenever I go to talk about my boyfriend it’s as if my Brain wants me to say girlfriend. I’ve had scenarios where I’ve randomly came out to my family, or my thoughts will say tell them you like females nobody would care, and I freak I don’t like girls in that way! What’s wrong with me is this HOCD? Please any answers are respected!