Need help/advice, my situation with OCD

[Civety]

I had magical thinking OCD, I was wasting a lot of hours during days doing rituals. Now I do no ritual, I've almost overcome it. My last post was about the thing I was afraid to wear, but I dealt with it.  But then I remembered/find out that it wasn't the last thing left with OCD. I'm also so afraid of perfume, because I had a lot of " OCD hallucination" connected with them. (Not real hallucinations, but staff like flashes in eyesight, feeling of touch when a thought comes to my mind). I bought perfume several times and throw them out after some time because I wasn't able to hold the pressure.
The problem is that I don't even want to wear perfume now, but most of the times when I'm dressing, doing my hair I automatically think about perfume, that I could wear it, that it smells really nice, and fear comes to a very hight point that my muscles feel like stones. I can't stop thinking about perfume, my brain do it even when I wake up, and at random times during the day. Not so much I need that perfume, but maybe because I subconsciously want to be absolutely free from OCD. So I get my muscles tensioned many times a day, and I feel really really bad, it affects my physical health too because tension in muscles is extremely bad for me. I need to solve it somehow.
I don't know exactly what to do. I don't know whether I can stop thinking about perfume, or maybe I should buy it. It all is too hard for me.
Please, help. Maybe you can recommend something to me, give me some advice.

[specialmom]

Oh my goodness.  I was just wondering about some things regarding my son and magical thinking really fits for him as well.  Please read this, it's quite interesting.  https://beyondocd.org/expert-perspectives/articles/very-superstitious  Avoidance is a common part of magical thinking.  Not wearing something that is 'bad luck', for example, including perfume. On the one hand, simply saying, perfume is not something anyone by any means has to use or wear.  Easy enough to not wear perfume. But on the other hand, the emotional aspect to it is such that it could carry over to other things.  I wrote of my son who has anxiety and I guess what is termed 'magical thinking' and he too feels terrible. His whole body is tense.  He feels sick a lot of the time. Carrying around anxiety can be quite a burden. I'm sorry you are going through that too.  Have you ever considered talking to someone about it?  CBT therapy can be effective.  My son is starting treatment although he doesn't feel he wants to at this time.  Hoping he seems improvement though and then becomes more motivated.  Can you look into anything like this for yourself?

[Paxiled]

Well, the cognitive behavioral way of dealing with that is to wear the perfume until it doesn't bother you anymore.  Perfume is generally not very good for you, as it is always synthetic -- any natural aroma is pure and doesn't last very long -- and frankly, as a guy, I have to say that almost all perfumes smell awful after awhile, especially in closed rooms.  But you know, whatever floats your boat.  The main thing is to demystify irrational fears, which is much much easier said than done but you appear to be doing well at it.  We maybe wear it until you accept it won't do anything bad to you and then don't use it, as you genuinely don't seem to actually like the stuff.  Peace.