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Hello. Wanted to know what your all's thoughts on this matter. I have never felt like I was attracted to the same sex. When I was young I did get talked into having some 'expierence' that I deeply repressed. Since then I had two female relationships for about 2-3 years each(im a guy). Know here's the weird part. After my last break up. I got a flood of emotion and with stress from work and other changes,  I broke down. Started really asking myself questions. While in that state I asked why I did thongs when I was young and the imeadiate awnsr I came up with was I'm gay. Ever since that moment I ha e been living in fear and panic that e eryone knows I'm gay. Its boxed me in and don't know what to do. I don't think I'm gay but fear the worst especially since I did that stuff when I was younger.  I do think about men a lot in terms of what I wish my persona / and physique were. I have always wanted to be a more confident man but just don't seem to get there so I ha e an idol who is a very confident male that I try to imitate. A lot. Does That mean I'm gay? Am I gay? What do you think. Thanks for your help and responses.
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1673169 tn?1316541930
You can get cognitive therapy and/or get some kind of anti anxiety pill..
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Well I guess it could be anxiety(never had that before) . If so what to people do to get over such thoughts? Can u get rid of them permanently?
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1673169 tn?1316541930
There is nothing wrong with having a mentor/idol....and there is nothing wrong with not wanting to be a father naturally either...What if all this is really bad anxiety?
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Thanks for the input. To clear some things up while I was in the relationships I always tried to think of my idol and what he would do in situations to appear more confident.  This make me think I think of men. But I don't fantasize sexually about him. I do fantasize about getting getting gratitude from him and not letting him down. Now I look at fathers and wonder why I wouldn't want to be one naturally.  I fear that the things I do make me like gay and the things I say sound gay. I have stopped talking to the public and friends and when I try all I focus on is things that are gay and cannot adjust my focus. Can't hardly go to the supermarket and shop without the feeling That people think I'm gay and have to leave... never had this intensity before.
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1673169 tn?1316541930
Hello,

You may be gay, or you may be psyching yourself out about this. I cannot tell by your posting wether or not you're gay. What if you talked to a counsler about this? Counslers can help you sort out your own thoughts.

I can offer you a little bit of my own experience. I was always straight, although I had a few encounters when I was younger. Now a days I am convinced that I am at least bisexual. I think sexuality is a fluid thing. It doesn't matter what gender you love, but which person. Fall in love with people. Do you see what I am saying?

My little brother is in the closet about being bisexual and I have tried to explain this theory to him also.

I hope this helps. Hugs-Bradian
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