reaching the end

[Texas Grannie]

I have had low grade ovarian cancer for over 14 years. I feel good, but tired, most of the time. I fill up with ascites 2 or 3 times a year. I have developed asthma and off and on diahrea. I developed nueropathy after chemo. Few people have lived as long as I have with continuing ovarian cancer, so this may be a question few people can answer. I am 75 and have had a good life and I really don't dread death except for my family. As you begin to develop more problems is this a sign that death is near? I have several projects I want to clean up before I die. Texas Grannie

[Texas Grannie]

Libby, we seem to have a lot in common. My cancer was discovered in fall of 1994. I am so thankful for these past years. I finished my teacing carreer, which was very rewarding. My 38 year old son and had 2 children. I would never have seen them had things gone as predicted. My grandchildren and friends are my reason for enjoying each day. I also feel God's nearness, walking with me through the hardships and joys. I am sorry you lost your husband. How ironic that you were the one ill when he died. It must have been doubly difficult. God bless, Texas Grannie

[LIBBY8]

This is from an Okie Grannie who was born in Texas and just recently finished my second round of treatments for oc ...I got my port out this week  and am hoping to get back some of my enthusiasm for life. I have always said, every day I can put my feet on the floor when I wake up, is a good day. I too am almost 75. I had 15 wonderful years after my first oc and am hoping for 15 more now that I have completed this round of treatments. The next 15 will be different since I will face them alone, having lost my husband of 51 years about two weeks into  my chemo. That was the hardest part. Three children and the 5 grandchildren who were born during my 15 year respite from cancer will help me get through whatever happens next ...friends and family get us through a lot...I wish you well...you have a lot of people pulling for you....count me as one more...Libby

[crecco]

  Thankfully, I cannot tell you what the end will be like. But I can say that once I was dx, I began to put my ducks in a row, so to speak. What I can say is how amazing you are for still being here after 14 years! That is amazing. It is women like you who give so much hope to the rest of us.
  May you have many more years ahead of you.
              Chris

[go_girl]

From a Colorado Grannie. I'm 68 and an OC survivor since '95 that makes us about even. I also think my time is near. I feel fine, have plenty of energy, can eat or do anything, swim 3x a week, have 2 businesses, editor of two newsletters, sit on the board of directors for our phone company AND do lots of volunteer work. I'm going to have to die to get some rest.

Last week I found a large tumor in my ab, had a scan and I'm awaiting the results. I can no longer have chemo or surgery so I just wait for my time.

I don't know if because of the way you are feeling that means the cancer has returned. Maybe it is something else, like depression. That kills me, and then I take my meds as prescribed and feel good again. Get some tests done before you worry too much.

Let me know more about how you are feeling.

[Texas Grannie]

Thank you Marie, I am sorry you are not doing well. Do you have ascites? That always me feel really bad. I asked God to let me live until my grandchildren didn't need me anymore. My son had two children after that. I have a special bond with all of them. Do you play computer games? I love them. I get them from Big Fish. When I feel really down, I dance to my hymns and as I dance I pray. I always feel better afterwards. You made me feel better, thank you. Texas Grannie

[marie3B]

I don't know when the end will be but I do know that you living 14 years gives me alot of hope.  I also have a grade 1 cancer.  I am kind of a sickly mess myself right now.  I also have some things I need to get done.  Problem is I can never find the energy.  I wish you the best.  I hope you have plenty of time to do all you want to do.  I also hope your family is allowed to have you with them for a long time.  Love, Marie