I will keep you in my prayers and I know the waiting is the worst.
-Brian
Well, I haven't heard back yet from the doctor, and since it's past 6:00 I'm pretty sure I won't be hearing from him tonight. Hopefully he will get in touch with me tomorrow. The waiting is what is making it so bad. Night everyone. I'll keep you posted.
I'm sorry you are the dilemna you are even though it's self induced.
I think your best option here is plain old simple truth. 'IF' and it's a big 'IF' the Dr will even see you, I'd suggest sitting down with him/her and being completely open and honest and ask for forgiveness and understanding. Tell him/her everything.............Let them know you realize just how big of a mistake you made and ask for another chance....What do you have to lose by trying this? Even if they kick you out, you've lost nothing other than doing the moral thing and explaining and being truthful about what and why you did what you did. We are all human and make mistakes all the time, Lord knows I've made my share of them and will undoubtedly make more throughout my life.
It's what we do after them that makes us what we are........ The saying goes, "The truth will set you free". I happen to subscribe to that theory and even though there are consequences to the decisions we make you can be lifted away from the overwhelming feelings of guilt and of having let others down.
I do wish you the best, please keep us posted, and STOP smoking pot while you are being treated by a PMP....... Sandee is 100% correct, these kinds of issues do cause it be more difficult for the rest of us who are seeking ongoing pain management and I would respectfully ask you to consider that in the future.
Best regards.
-Brian.
Sometimes an anthroscopy (sp) of the knee needs to be done to determine the source of the pain when the other diagnostic tests come up negative. I had knee surgery almost 21yrs ago, and honestly I don't get any pains, so something must be being missed in your testing. My ortho did tell me that they don't always see the tears even though they have done all the diangostic testing. Some tears are so minute that they can only be seen once they do an anthroscopy.
In my experience, I have had the tech read my MRI completely wrong of my shoulder.
I really hope you get to the bottom of your knee pain.
There are many state run agencies that can help you since you have no insurance. Have you applied for Medicaid?
There are other government run agencies also that can help you.
You need to have the proper test run to get a diagnosis so that you can find the cause of the pain and possible have surgery or whatever the problem require to relieve the pain your suffering.
Let me know if you need help finding these agencies and I will do what I can to assist you:)
To Totie- Yes, that is who recommended me to the PM. They did all sorts of test and couldn't come up with anything. They said that I had a little degeneration of the tissue in my knees, but it shouldn't be causing me that big of a problem. I have always had an extremely low tolerance to pain, so maybe it is just something minor that feels much more major to me. Oh the pain scale of 1-10 it's usually a 6 or a 7 when sitting, and a constant 9 when moving around or standing. I haven't been able to pay to go to my orthopedics since my insurance ran out, so I don't really know if anything has changed or not. It sure doesn't feel like it has.
And to geminigirl1963, thank you so much for the support. I definitely know that this is the right thing to do, but it is still super scary. I'll fill you all in after my doc calls.