I am so distraught. need advice.

[MamaBirdRhonda]

I feel like I make a horrible first impression on a new doctor because of how broken I have become...and they look at me...as tho I was a street drug addict. they don't look at the big picture..or take into consideration all I have gone thru medically...structurally....and they do not seem to.... care... who people like me...really are.  I just want to be able to cook for my husband and enjoy the rest of my family and my birds and go see my grandson play T-ball now and then. that's all.  it's  hard to believe that I lose because I don't want to add more drugs to my life...and my offer to wean back just to be able to get into a new practice....(my pain med doctor is going into teaching and I love her). this is so scary to me.  the new doctor she referred me to....won't do my pain management because she said...my prescribed dose is too high. and they could find no indication that I use the breakthru drug oxycontin....I am so frightened...and I offered to wean back to her acceptable level on the morphine...and was told no.  not to do that.  they questioned why I did not use the breakthru pain med?  and what did I do with it?  I flush them. I hate them. I can't even use them...I have Pulmonary Fibrosis and if I used them...it would decrease the function of my lungs.  but they prescribe them anyway...so I pick them up..pay for them...and flush them.  I do not want more drugs. I hate that I have to take anything for pain management. I am so tired of being looked down upon...because I would rather use alternative medicine...as a breakthru help along with the morphine. I have tried medical cannabis...because a compassionate person helped me understand all that and brought me something edible and it was like a miracle. no break thru pain and I could breathe better to boot. but...the new doctor declined to be my pain management doctor...because I was honest about this.  I've been on morphine for almost 3 years. I did not die of the IPF in 5 years as they said I probably would...instead...because I am so careful and research alternatives...I am 7 years past my original diagnosis. the pain meds are because I was hit by a drunk driver in 1994 and my spine was fractured. many surgeries. I am fused from C-1 to T-1 with a titanium plate in there....fibromyalgia all over...S-1 nerve root compression.  was bed ridden. morphine got me out of bed and able to live again.  I do not understand why they are so hard on even me. a Senior Citizen who just wants to live. I am so distraught. I need encouragement and advice. I live in SC.

[remar]

Are you saying as of right now you have no pain Dr? Sorry, but I'm confused about this. If the new Dr is refusing to treat you because you want to go down on your medication then I recommend you talk to your primary Dr. He/she may be able to help you find another pain Dr or clinic.
I also don't understand why they keep prescribing a pain medication to you that you can not take. It's a waste of time and money to go pick them up and then just flush them.
You do have some choices. Find another pain specialist that knows about different types of treatments. You can stop taking your medication, only with the help of your Dr of course. Marijuana  did help your pain? Some Drs will prescribe this is pill form. It may depend on what state you live in and of course, the Dr.
If it were me I would get started right away on finding a new pain specialist. Hopefully you will find one who will listen to what your needs are.

[bahamamama13165]

Why would you continually pickup and pay for pain meds, just to flush them? That doesn't make sense and any doctor that hears that is going to assume you are selling them. That is what a lot of people do. You need to stop doing that if you want a doctor to work with you. I'm glad the medical marijuana is helping. Good luck.

[Minnie_Amma]

You have a BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT!
That's all that can be said -- no words, no advice, no suggestions -- you are already a leader, you are already on the right track -- you just hang in there and don't let anybody bring you down!

If your new doctor can't make you happy, see if you can find a different one. A doctor should be proud and honored to have you as a patient. You shouldn't settle for anything less than that!

Best wishes!