1: Kill yourself for good.
2: accept your condition and look for ways, study online, get fully into your subject, reinforce your mind with stop expecting things acceptance applause from the other etcs. Get out of your head that of; Being happy next to, in any case, anyone in their good sense of balance knows that happiness is within one and not next to the other, okay, we are social beings, but, we have a condition which should to take you to be the most independent, investment of economy, savings, buy a house away, live alone peacefully if possible with all current technologies, dedicate yourself to study ...... so many things, and you there complaining about how it will be? , I understand your age, but I also have to tell you that because we are in a reality that limits you, but also leads you to seek other paths.
change routines, exercise, try to eat healthy, study .........
At least, it helped me to be or try to be as relaxed as possible, I would say that my PATM effect was under 50%, I am still going down, but that at a constant effort, try to eat normally, try not to stress too much for my condition, accept my condition, get out of the previous routine, try to eliminate my panics of fear in certain circumstances, etc .....