And the rollercoaster ride begins.

[adgal]

I gave in and tried a FRER this morning, 5 days before AF is due. No, no symptoms or anything, just a gut feeling?  Anyway, much to my shock it's a bfp.  It's light, but no squinting required, and it's definately pink not grey.  So, here I go again.  I'm of course excited and happy, but cautious to not allow myself to get too excited.  Besides my one little miracle, my track record isn't great.  So we shall see I guess.  I'll be 43 in January, and this baby would be due late August I think?  Ironic thing is I conceived on my wedding anniversary....it was exactly 4 years ago  that I found out I was pregnant for the first time, and this whole journey began.  It's like I have come full circle or something.  But I did get a miracle once, maybe I'll get lucky again.  

[claud9]

I wish you the best during these next weeks and congratulations.

[waitn838]

omg!!! congrats!!!!

please keep me updated on your progress.....i wish you the best but i prob wont be able to check out the forums very much after i have these twins

i believe in miracles and it sounds like the stars lined up for you too

best of luck

[jenandjon]

Thinking of you.  Sending you tons of sticky baby dust.  We are ttcing again too.  I think I remember you from when we were ttcing a few years ago.  My little pricess will be 3 this week.  We have a few angel babies looking over us and I agree with Sally about the progesterone support.  I was doing Vitex and prometrium last time and I do think it helped.  I'm getting ready to start those again.  So excited for you and I know how you feel about it not seeming real.  Its ok.  Its just the way that we protect ourselves.  Sending that little bean some hold on tight sticy vibes.  Hugs.

[have 2 kids]

Sending you a great big hug!  I will keep you in my prayers.

[adgal]

Thanks again.  I did another one this morning, and still positive, so feeling more confident (I always have to show them to DH to confirm the lines are pink..lol).  Still pretty light, but then again it's pretty early.  I actually do wish though that I could have held off taking a test as taking them this early can be more stressful.  I worry now about a chemical, although no sign of bleeding at this point.  Arrghhh....I hate first trimester.  I love everything about being pregnant...the idea that a new life is growing in your body is amazing, but why can't we just skip first trimester!!  So much for not obsessing...lol.

[Super_sally888]

Hi Adgal,

After all my miscarriages, with this little sticky one - now 21 weeks along and looks like a girl, showed up really early. About 9 DPO.  The fact its a positive so early is a good sign for you!  

Do you need progesterone support?  Get that early if it's even suspected.

Thinking and praying for you!  Will be watching you and cheering for you every step of the way.

Sally

[nola0805]

How exciting!!!  Congratulations.  I know it is a cautious sort of exciting, but embrace it!  I am so happy for you.  This encourage me to get off the "should I have another" fence I have been struggling with.

[Helen72]

OMG, congratulations!  I know it's hard to feel optimistic and the first trimester will be so stressful but I hope u/s will bring some good news.

[adgal]

Thanks so much again.  Such a wonderful reminder why I spend so much time here, the support is incredible, and I appreciate it.  I'll admit it, I'm scared.  It's sad when DH and I don't even really celebrate a bfp although both of us very much want a second child.  I know, sounds so negative.  I'm not, I'm very hopeful, but it's going to be a long long 9 1/2 weeks to get to the end of the first trimester.  Fortunately, I should get an ultrasound rather early.  I'll be contacting my RE in the am, and starting my progesterone supplements.  She'll monitor my blood levels weekly until I can have an ultrasound.  And in the meantime...I'll obsess...lol.  Fortunately, I have a very very active toddler to give me lots of cuddles and keep me busy.  Hopefully the time goes by very quickly.

[ChristineMP]

OMG...Congrats!!!! Sticky baby dust blowing your way!

[mum2beagain]

Happy for you!

[Heather5]

Hahaha..."knock me out and wake me up at the end of first trimester"...I think a lot of us can relate to that! :-) BIG congrats to you and lots of sticky vibes being sent your way!!!

[tones99]

Oh love .. this is so exciting .. and I know that feeling ... wishing away the stressful first trimester .. I really hope this little one sticks around!

[stacey10]

ha ha !!! congratulations :) best wishes to you and lets hope you have smooth sailing from here :)

[adgal]

Thanks ladies.  I think it's still not real for me.  But, the hpt passed the DH test (just to make sure it wasn't a wishful thinking line..lol).  Light, but it's super early, I'm about 9 dpo.  Now, if only someone could knock me out and wake me up at the end of first trimester.  Oh well, what can you do.  Have to just ride it out, and what will be will be.  It's out of my control now.

[naturschld]

Congrats!  I hope everything goes well for you and you have a happy and healthy nine months.

[Scout8601]

Oh yeah,  and I knew just from the title of your post that you had got your BFP, cos I so understand that rollercoater.  Hopefully it will be a smooth and joyous ride.

[Scout8601]

Oh wow, I'm actually crying I'm so happy for you.  You'll be in my prayers and I so so so hope this is a sticky one for you too.  Lots and lots of SSBD!

[adgal]

Thanks hon.  I seem to keep getting pregnant, so due for a sticky one I think.  Either way though, it's ok.  I am hopeful, but prepared, know what I mean.  Still though...pretty shocked.

[RmberMe69]

OMG OMG Congrats! I am happy for you. I will be praying for you xxxx