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TRAGIC AND DEVASTATING NEWS

I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face. But I wanted to thank everyone for their prayers and tell you all that I do find strength in knowing that we had so many people praying for us. Unfortunately, God had other plans. Ian's tumor was "very fast moving, and malignant." He survived surgery, but just barely. As the evening wore on, his suffered more and more pressure in his head and became more unresponsive. The tumor was growing too fast, and was causing much damage. We spent the whole night praying for a miracle, but my husband and I knew when there was no hope. We made the heartbreaking decision to turn off all medical support this morning, and Ian passed away peacefully in our arms at about 9:45 a.m.

I am so thoroughly devastated, that I'm not sure how I'll make it through the next five minutes. Everywhere I turn are reminders of my baby. Two days ago, life was so normal...now it never will be again. I keep picking up his pajamas and smelling them...I miss him terribly and my arms are aching for him. Every time my milk comes in, I cry because I know it's his feeding time and he'll never suckle again. I'm in so much pain it's hard to breathe. Please keep me and my husband and our children in your prayers...we need all the strength we can get.

Tricia
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1041961 tn?1274660914
Tricia,

I am new to this forum and only now saw your terribly sad news. As a mother, the very thought of the pain you and your family are feeling takes my breath away. Losing a child is not something that any of us is supposed to do. I'm sitting here, wiping away the tears, and hoping that you can one day breathe again without hurting.

Please know my thoughts are with you,
Bonnie
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1004712 tn?1263393948
Reading your story has just brought me to tears I know there are no words I can say to make you feel better. But I am so sorry for your loss. . My prayers and thoughts are with you and your husband!
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My deepest sympathy to you & your husband. This is a poem for you.
"A Light For Ian "
Pain and suffering is to its end in this child's life
We shall not weep for this child, for he is now in a place of beauty
Where there is no war, no hate, and no death
Eternal life is to be brought forth through God by a soft glowing flame:
Strong enough to hold all his children
Containing a prayer that which all prayers are made,
A life, that which all lives are created.
You can't see this flame, yet you always know it is there.
You can't touch this flame, yet you can always feel its presence
This child has now seen God, and God has a need for him.
So, you see, this child did not die, he is reborn.
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984847 tn?1253732146
I know we have never spoken but I am so deeply hurt by the news I just read. May the Lord bless you and your family with the strength to get through this impossible time. You and your family are in my prayers. My God cradle you in his beloved arms baby Ian.    Kim
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1025863 tn?1251910575
I just read your post and I couldn't even imagine the pain your heart feels - My prayers and thoughts are surrounding you and your family during this most difficult time.  

I am so sorry for you loss - So very sorry.  

OXO,
Trina
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901246 tn?1281109626
I am speechless. I don't know what to say besides I am so very sorry.  
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872925 tn?1239869070
I am so sorry to hear this news. My condolences to your family Tricia. Yes, you're right, God has other plan for Ian. Stay strong. You're in my prayer.
Etts
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674725 tn?1367439630
I just got back from V.A. and read and re-read your post a few times. I'm stunned by your devastating news. I don't know what to say - there aren't any comforting words for what you're going through.  My heart truly breaks for you.  I'm so so sorry for your loss and I can only pray that you have strength to get through this.  Know that we're all here for you.    
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847328 tn?1289783114
I pray that God's love will surround you like huge giant strong arms and comfort and soothe you and your husbands grief.  

There are really no words at all to express our condolences.  Please let us know if you do a memorial for him.  I would like to lend my support to either a foundation or cause in his name.  

God bless you and your family!!
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865566 tn?1356700362
I am so, so very sad to hear of your loss.  My heart aches for you.

Gigi
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760556 tn?1255705081
I am sooo sorry for your loss, I was reading your post with tears running down my face, I cannot even begin to imagine the pain you and your family are going through, I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. God Bless!!
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1016526 tn?1265303311
I am so sorry.  I will be praying for you and your family.
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318181 tn?1336443496
How absolutely devastating... I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.
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i am so sorry, i cant believe this~!  i wish you and your family great strength right now to help get through this horrific time....
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Tricia,
I have been thinking and praying for you and your family since I read this post yesterday.  I can not even imagine what you are going through right now.  I am so very very sorry.  I know words will never make it better, but please know that you are surrounded by people who care about you and we are all praying for you.  Take care, Suzanne
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652679 tn?1276987360
Tricia I just read your post...I am truely sorry from the bottom of my heart.  I know that your family is heartbroken and i am very very sorry for your loss. It seems we started this whole journey together 9 months ago and now this terrible tradgedy has happened to my friend. I wish there was something I could say or do to help. My condolences to you and your family and please know that I am here if you ever need to vent. I am truely sorry and I do believe that baby Ian is a beautiful little angel watching over his mommy.

Mashelle
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377493 tn?1356502149
Oh no no no.  Honey, I am just now getting this news and God, I can't believe it.  I am so very sorry.  You and your family have all my prayers.  I wish I could have been there for you.  Please, if there is anything at all I can do for you, you know I will.  I am thinking about you and I know your sweet little boy is in God's hands.  Amanda
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722430 tn?1288128109
Sending you strength and prayers during the most difficult time of your life.  

Rest in peace sweet baby Ian.  You are in the arms of the angels now.

Monica
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I am very sorry, I can't even think of any words to say.  Ian is in my thoughts and prayers.
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280369 tn?1316702041
I am so so very sorry for your loss! I am praying for your family. My heart aches for you.
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I'm speechless. I am deeply, deeply sorry for your loss.
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I am so sorry for your loss
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I am soo soo sorry for your loss.  My God grant you and your husband "the power beyond what is normal" for much peace and calm in your hearts.

--Terisa
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I just wanted to say i am so sorry for your loss and I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

Angie
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