U/S results

[adgal]

Just back from my u/s.  Nothing was visible on abdominal, so they did transvaginal.  I am 7 weeks today, but little one is measuring only 5w3d. No cardiac activity.  They will repeat next week, but I know that means it's over for me.  Thank you for all your support and good wishes, but not meant to be this time.  I am grateful for my healthy little boy and we will try again for a sibling for him.  As those of you that have been through this with me before know, I will not be around for a bit.  I need to have a bit of a pity party, digest and grieve, then I will pick myself up and try again.  Just need a bit of time.  Thanks again for all your support, it means a great deal to me.  SSBD ladies!!!

[twinbabies]

I am so sorry girl! We are all here for you if you need us. Take Care XXOO

[Prayerful2528]

I am so sorry hun...You know I am here for you...I am sending prayers up for your speedy recovery. I can truly relate, I am dealing with the same thing as I type. Take care of yourself.

Love Yolanda

[lisa0114]

awwww sweetie i am soooooooo sorry :( but stay positive and don't give up you will be prego and have a healthy baby. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family <3

[montie2]

I haven't been on and am just reading this. I'm so sorry. I know you are blessed with Ryder and you will be blessed again.  
Love you honey.

[adgal]

Thanks again everyone.  I draw so much strength from your comments and posts.  I will get pregnant again...it happened pretty quickly this time, so there is every reason to believe it will again.  And I know there is at least one sticky one left in there!  

I spoke to my OB today about doing some more testing (nothing was ever really discovered last time).  I have opted not to...there just doesn't seem to be any sense in it.  I know I can have a healthy baby, so what is the point in putting myself through that.  I am also not going to have FSH or anything else (even though she didn't suggest it, but in case she did).  I don't want to hear any potential negatives. I wouldn't listen anyway..lol.

So now the decision is whether or not to have a D&C.  I am going to wait until the next u/s, then decide from there.  I am not certain if I like the idea of having a third, but I also get frustrated with waiting so long for nature to take it's course.  Either way, it's going to be fine.

[MH Community Mgr]

Amanda,

We are sorry for your loss.  If there's anything we can do to help at this difficult time, please let us know.

Cheryl
MH Community Mgr

[sue68]

Amanda,

So sorry to hear this - my heart hurts for you.  Its not "cold" at all what you feel - I can totally understand what you mean.  Ryder has great timing - he's going to keep you busier now that he's discovered his legs.  I'm picturing him running like that boy in "The Incredibles" and you chasing after him.... You're a tough chick, Amanda - I know you're going to have another baby and you'll be inspiring us all like you've always have.  Heal fast and hope you'll be back with happy news before you know it.  

big hugs  

[tatorbug40]

Amanda,  I am so sorry to hear about this!  You are in my prayers and thoughts, and just keep kissing that little boy-  it will happen again,  I know it will!!  hugs!!!  xoxo

[Ashelen]

I'm very sorry....but what a little angel Ryder is...I know you're healing right now and if there's anything I can do..lend an ear, a shoulder, etc...you have my number and ways to contact me so please feel free to.

you're such a strong woman..you really do remind me what it means to never give up and to be strong no matter what life hands you.

[Birds71]

so sorry to hear of your loss.  Give Ryder extra kisses!  Thinking of you.  :)

[mhv]

I am sorry to hear your news, but will continue to have hope for this weeks u/s.  You just never know.
I started crying when you said that your son started walking this week.  Wow, just what God ordered, a distraction.  Give your little man Ryder a hug and know that someday soon he will have a sibling.

xo,

[have 2 kids]

I am sorry this is happening again.   Thankfully you have Ryder and he is a wonderful blessing.  

[adgal]

Sorry, should have said my dream of having a child, not another.  That's the new dream.  

Thanks ladies.  He really does make anything difficult that much easier.  Plus, he doesn't leave me a lot of time to dwell on it.

[mum2beagain]

Bless Ryder, I'm so glad you have him there to brighten up your day. He sounds like such a little super star!

[AmyG89]

Just wanted to say that I'm praying for you and so happy to hear that you truly are doing ok. Ryder is such a blessing and I wish you well.

[adgal]

Once again I am overwhelmed by the support here.  Thank you so much.

I will be having another u/s this week, but given that I am absolutely certain of my dates, and even allowing for late ovulation and implantation, a difference of 9 or 10 days simply isn't possible.  Yes, sometimes mistakes happen, but early u/s dating is pretty accurate.  Combined with the fact that the spotting has graduating to bleeding with clots, and I don't have much doubt.

This is always hard, but in all honesty, I truly am doing ok.  Prior to Ryder this was much harder as I had begun to give up hope of having another child.  I have my dream now, so while still sad, it is easier.  I hope that doesn't sound cold.  

I really just want this over now, and we will try again.  I am pretty stubborn, and as long as I continue to conceive, we will continue to try.  We are sad, but having a busy 10 month old to care for does help keep me focused.  He chose this week to begin to walk, and he can always put a smile on my face when I am feeling down.

Thanks again ladies, I truly don't know where I would be without the support, encouragement and love I feel here.  I appreciate you all so very much.

[mjmom69]

I just read your post. I am so sorry you have to go thru this again. I will keep you in my prayers.

[pertykitty]

i havent been on during the crazy week but i am reading this with such sadness for you.  bless you and your family, i will be here if you need me at any time!! this is a hard time to deal with such news and i will come back more often to see if you are on.  

[Allip77]

I have tears reading your post and all of the other people's comments.  You have many people who care for you and are wishing you the best -- for obvious good reasons.  Thank God you have Ryder.  Take care.

[LisaL18]

Thinking of you and praying that all is alright.  Hang tight to the little miracle you have.

[nola0805]

I am so, so sorry but it is good to hear that you are doing okay, and yes, that Ryder is a little miracle.  I am wishing you continued healing and all the SSBD in the world for the future when you are ready to try again.  

[Risa615]

Amanda,
Thinking of you during this difficult time.  Sending you prayers!
Risa

[thisbabygrama2one]

Im sorry Amanda.. Disapointing and hurtfull, but thanking God for your Ryder to heal..

[rdh1981]

I am so very sorry! My heart is breaking for you!