i wish i could enjoy this

[waitn838]

after suffering multiple miscarriages its so hard to enjoy the thought of being preg...i did some looking back and my last mc was at 5 weeks so after next week ill have made it further then that one...but then i have to make it to 18 weeks to surpass my one before it...

the only things i have going on is that my boobs are easy to feel (if that makes sense)...they tingle sometimes and hurt others....ive been sleeping more...and constant bathroom trips....

im so worried about losing this one....i think about taking a preg test everyday to help keep me at ease but there has to be a cheaper way....

my first doc appt is wed...i believe they are going to do a beta which will def help....but that seems like forever away...

im sorry if im wining...i want to enjoy this but its so hard....

is it ok that im not have many symptoms right now? i worry about that so much

[waitn838]

i hope it i didnt portray my feelings on being preg the wrong way....i am estatic but yet so scared...its comforting knowing im not alone and reading others stories of success really helps

so far im just about 5 weeks and im about to surprass my last mc...i really am feeling good about this one....im hoping this is a successful preg as i have already decided no matter what outcome i am done with preg....i have my personal reasons and i really do hope this is successful but either way i will accept it

best of luck to everybody....please feel free to stay in touch

[bny807]

I know exactly how yall feel!!! i had 4 mc's (and we were only able to get pregnant with those 4 after multiple fertility treatments) i felt kind of ripped off that after the first few i didnt get to be excited and tell our families in a fun way etc etc... so one time i decided you know i'm just goign to be excited and not say well "IF" we stay pregnant and "IF" we have a baby.. so i tried to have such a positive outlook and lost that pregnancy too, iw as devastated... and anytime i heard my friends find out they were pregnant and annouce - "we are going to have a baby" it broke my heart cause i thought we would first of all never have a baby, and second of all everytime we were pregnant i never got to think that it would actually result in a baby.. HOWEVER.. the 5th one was the charm ( now have a three month old daughter! :)! and even though i was on edge the ENTIRE time, that I would loose her, and didnt' really enjoy the pregnancy since i was worried the whole time (totally addicted to the doppler- i recommend getting one!)  it is sooo worth it!
  the one thing that kept my hopes kind of up throughout the or deal was an article i read in a magazine at the RE's office one time- it said if you have gotten pregnant one time before (and miscarried) that you have a 98% chance of carrying to term eventually! so the fact that you HAVE been pregnant at all is HUGE! :)  
i'm praying for yall!!! so excited that everything looks good so far! and i know for me for my pregnancy that did go full term my symptoms came and went - which was such a roller coaster, but they say thats normal! :)
  

[sue68]

Hi Everyone,

We're all going through the same fears and I know how hard it is to try not to let the negative thoughts overwhelm you.  Instead of holding your breath until certain dates pass, celebrate every week that passes, knowing every week your baby is growing. It helps.  I know , I know - its easier said than done but, once you get used to it (and you will somewhat ) you'll learn to relax - even if its a short break - just helps to worry a tad less.
I know I'm always going to worry - especially with every appointment coming up - but, I know it doesn't help the baby to be in a constant state of fear.  I've had a couple of m/c's and I got through those when I didn't think I could.  I think it made me stronger - I guess so or I wouldn't have kept trying.  Just know you have a strength in you , you can handle it.    I don't know if you're familiar with Adgal but, in one of her posts she regretted worrying and not enjoying her pregnancy.  I took those words into heart and am trying my best to enjoy this moment.  And if you haven't already heard - after 5 m/c's  Adgal just gave birth to her baby boy.   So you see ?  There ARE happy endings and you will have one too.  

[Kricket212]

I had a m/c & just had D&C on Jan 6.  I have to do IVF due to a clogged tube so we will try again in March but soooooo scared that I have to go thru this again.  Trying to stay strong for the big picture but really oh so scared.

[waitn838]

im still doing well...taking things day by day....my first doc appt is on wed....i could go to a walk in clinic today but they only take 12 people and i didnt want to risk not getting in so i found a doc that would get me in sooner then 8 weeks...

i took another preg test yesterday and the positive line was darker then the control line...darker then before so im hoping that means my hcg is rising

im still nervous but trying to make the best of this....once i get past this week i'll have surpassed my last miscarriage....then after 16 weeks ill have surpassed the one before that (devastating one)....im confident and hopeful right now

thank you for keeping me in mind....


how are you doing?

[msacha]

I'm wondering how you are feeling?  Just wanted to let you know that I'm still following your story and would love to know how you did on your doc appointment.

I will continue to pray for you.

[chinesebones]

First, congrats on your pregnancy!  
Second, I can certainly relate to your feelings.  With my first pregnancy I didn't worry at all- until I started spotting.  The second pregnancy I worried constantly.  My third pregnancy I tried to take a different approach: worrying didn't change anything, so I tried just to cherish every day I was pregnant, every minute I had with my little bean still in residence, and leave everything else in God's hands.  I tried to think this way, but I still would check the tp with a pounding heart every single time.
You're still early to have symptoms: I wouldn't worry about that.  Every one of my pregnancies was different- with one I couldn't stand even thinking about dairy foods, with one I craved sausage biscuits, another Whoppers; my boobs did all their growing the first time and never changed in subsequent pgs.  The only constant was morning sickness, and that didn't start until 6+ weeks.  
Best wishes- you're in my thoughts!

[waitn838]

ladies its always comforting knowing you are not alone....i hope we all are able to stay in touch and help each other through this tough time....although we all should be estacic and blessed....its hard


best of wishes to everybody....i have my first doc appt on wed

[jessyboy007]

I'm going through the same thing!! I've had a few mc before my daughter and one just 2 months ago and I just found out that I'm preggo again... I'm a wiping freak , I'm paranoid that I might lose this one too ... It a constant fear but I try to Tay hopeful !! I'm worried cause I have a 14 month old and I need to be picking her up all the time , what can be done ?

[sme1spcl]

I undertstand and I am worried about my baby as well! I just found out that I am preagnant and the only sympton I have is sleeplessness. I  will pray for you and just know GOD is going to bless you with that beautiful baby you are carrying

[msacha]

Hello!  I've had multiple miscarriages too and am currently at 5wks and 3 days.  I so get your worry and lack of true happiness with the pregnancy.  To make matters worse, I'm 39 years old and have never had a successful pregnancy.  My last pregnancy was a blighted ovum in 07.  I've had two beta tests so far and looked good, but so did the ones I had in 07.  Like you, I do not have many pregnancy symptoms at all, except mildly sore breasts and ever so slight nausea (but not every day).  I will have my first U/S Feb 10th, which would be week 8- the longest I've ever been pregnant.  Your concerns are normal and I'm just happy to find someone that is experiencing the same things I am.  I know everyone probably advises you the same thing: relax, try not to think about it, but you and I know that it is nearly impossible to do that.  So, this is what I do, I keep trying to live my normal life.  When I am feeling down and doubtful, I go online and read about others in my position, and I pray that I am able to accept God's will, whatever it is.  Usually, this helps.  Talking to the people around me is not very helpful, they are  also tense, (even if they don's say it), and/or have no idea what it feels like to be in our position.  I'll be praying for you too.  Good luck!