I have been in denial about possibly being pregnant for about a week. (I took a home pregnancy test Wednesday night AND Thursday morning) I got into my midwife Tuesday morning. I cried when the tech came in and confirmed that I was positively pregnant! Had labs drawn, my quant levels were 21,461--which my midwife said I should be between 6 and 7 weeks and set up a sono for today. I was nervous, but I decided that I was going to embrace this regardless if the timing is all wrong.
When I went for the ultrasound today, the tech couldn't find the fetal pole or detect a heart beat. She did however see the sac and the yolk sac, so she took her findings to my midwife. My midwife told me that at 20,000 we should be seeing MUCH more than what they saw. So she wanted my quant drawn again and had me set my appointment with the Dr for Monday. I will have the results tomorrow on my quant, but I'm feeling the stress and a little like a piece of my heart has broken.
I wasn't ready for baby number 4 and was terrified to tell my husband that we were expecting again, but now that all this has hit--I want nothing more for him to comfort me during this. But he isn't known for showing his emotions. I feel like I'm at a loss. I want answers now and don't want to wait until tomorrow or Monday.