feeling guilty

[Jessica408]

Im now 30wks3days and I feel like im not emotionally or mentally ready for my baby to arrive. As the weeks and days get shorter I get more nervous about how I will cope with a new born. In the beginning I was so excited to have a baby but im under so much stress and im not as excited as I was before. Of course I love my baby and care for him but im just not sure how I will handle it. My babys dad is expected to get full custody for his 1 1/2 year old son the same month as my due date and it makes the stress almost unbarable. His son is so cute and im happy to add him into our family but I just feel so under pressure . I hate the fact that both of the babies will be her at the same time. I dont mean to sound selfish but because my bds son is comming home my babys birth is like old news to his family and my bd is more excited for his son than our new baby. Everyone is so focused on his son rather than our unborn baby. I feel jealous guilty and selfish for being upset about it. To make matters worse I am scared that taking care of a toddler will leave little room for me to spend time bonding with my new baby which I feel I will need to do. I worry about this so much and almost resent being pregnant now that I will have to give more of my time and attention to my babys dads son instead of my own.

[megspregs]

Im pretty early on but I can only imagine all the things going through your mind! This being your firat baby id say its only natural to feel likee youd rather have all eyes on you and your baby and not another child. Way easier said than done but everyone says instinct pays a huge role in your new mommy to be life! Im sure it will not be easy but once everyone is settlled in im sure it will be worth it. Good luck on your gowing family!

[elvendork]

That should read...
I do not think it is possible for anyone to feel like they are fully prepared.

[elvendork]

I got think it is possible to feel like you are fully prepared