I had one last week. Best advice is stay calm, breathe, and take your time. Recovery is rough right now, so use those around you for help and support. You have plenty of time to be super mommy later. Best of luck!
I don't have much input. Ftm as well. Just want to wish you good luck!
Wish I could offer more help but ftm as well. I know plenty of people that have had c sections and they are fine. Recovery is just longer. Praying for you to find some peace of mind tho.