MC "Anniversary" - wigging out

[giapaCLE]

Last year - 12 cycles ago exactly, I became pregnant.  This was our first pregnancy.  10 weeks later I was told that there was no heartbeat and the pregnancy was not viable (went in 3 x's over 2 weeks to reach determination).  I received a D&C due to a missed miscarriage.

We are pregnant again (yea!) and I have to admit that this pregnancy has been heavily weighted by our past experience.  Every day I doubt the pregnancy, and today is the day the fetus stopped developing last time.

Miscarriages are a cruel joke, missed miscarriages included.  A time of joy being shadowed in doubt and frustration is, well frustrating.  I am trying to remain positive, reminding myself that this is not the last time, my body has no memory of what happened last year, and I am going to go to term - but the doubt is there.

I am lucky to have an OB that is not allowing my obsessive nature to manifest.  He reminds me that I am having a normal pregnancy, everything looks good.

Now if I could just keep that in mind at 2 am. . .

Thanks for listening and HAPPY AND HEALTHY pregnancy to you!

[30something13]

I had a mc the month befor eI got pregnant this time but the worst for me is the fact I lost my daughter shortly after birth and the was my last pregnancy. I think all the time everything is good then I think of her. I worry that the day I reach 23 weeks I will go crazy with worry and remember and think of giving borth to her. I also feel that I will be resent ful that why did I loose her and this time everything is OK. I hate myself for even worrying that! I worry I will cry and think of her and all that pain will rush back when I give birth. I do not know how to get past this! I guess holding on to the fact my baby is growing good and right on shedule helps me be excited. I know it will be bitter but sweat also and just think of holding that baby on your arms. Let the positive outway the bad and not letting the negative manifest. Distract and know you will always need times to mourn the baby you lost and speperate that form the happy feeling of this baby. Does that make since? I am trying it and it helps.

[rghkah38]

I got pregnant in Feb. and my due date was supposed to be today.  Same as you I lost the pregnancy at 10 weeks.   Most days I stress out about every little thing because I'm scared of losing this pegnancy.  It's hard not to worry.

[Atlantisea]

I was the same with the pregnancy after my miscarriage. It put a dark feeling inside of me when I should have been happy. Everything worked out fine that next time, and this time I decided that rather than worry I was going to act like it was a sure thing and enjoy it. Miscarriage stole the joy out of my last pregnancy and I don't intend to let that happen again!

Good luck and think positively. It is much more likely that this will be a healthy pregnancy. (miscarriage is one in 5)