Just needed to let it out, havent told my family or friends how i truly feel.

[Karitas310]

When I found out I am pregnant with baby #2, I did not jump of joy like my daughter and husband. Instead I kinda panicked. My thoughts were "how am I going to deal with two kids? I cant do this." (Mind you my daughter is 5 yrs old & I am 12 weeks prego.) I do love my baby in my belly but part of me is just... scared? Maybe because my mom passed away last year and i wish she was with me through this pregnancy and I cant help but feel empty. Its like i wanna be happy and jump of joy but all i can think is how my mom wont be able to knitt a blanket like she does with every grandchild. How this baby never got a chance to meet her, how she wont be there when i give birth.

Maybe its the pregnancy that got me all emotional or maybe because im still grieving or maybe its both together??

I just need my mom with me, especially with this pregnancy.

[janellemassy]

Im sorry to hear abt your mother. Last year my aunt passed away from breast cancer and i was very close to her i cried a few days ago thinking abt how horribly i wanted to show her the new house me and my fiance bought and abt how all the biggest things in my life were happening the year right after she died. Im still healing and i think of her almost everyday. I kno it may not seem like the same thing considering it was ur mom not ur aunt but my aunt was like a second mother to me and ive realized only time can heal. Congrats on ur baby and goodluck!

[0_LING_0]

I'm so sorry u lost ur mom recently :( I can understand how u would feel not as excited cuz having ur mother there does play an important role. Not much that I can say other than that u now have another angel and ur mom will always b with u and ur babies. I wish u all the best!