Need some direction...

[9_11momma2be]

I do apologise in advance for this irrelevant post. I'm 21 years of age and 15 weeks along, I live with my parents and decided to take a break from college to have my baby. Before I conceived I dated my boyfriend for 5 years and we have had endless problems nevertheless I loved this guy with all of me and believed he felt the same for me. Evidently I was wrong as he cheated on me for the entire relationship and even beat me up so badly that I was left with a broken nose (he felt I was cheating - not true). A year later we started speaking and I forgave him on the grounds that he had changed. My family never accepted him as my boyfriend and when I found out he had betrayed me again I was broken and humiliated...I was also 2 weeks pregnant and had no idea. For the sake of our baby we tried to make it work but he still lied and never had time for me. When I tell him how I really feel he gets mad and swears at me saying I'm passing my psycho behaviour to our baby. I feel alone and literally have no friends or people who know the truth cause I always stood by him. I'm not happy and just needed to get that out. Sorry again and thank you for taking the time to read this :)

[sjkduke03]

These ladies gave you good feedback on your situation. It's hard to be optimistic or happy about situations that seem bleak. I just want to encourage you, as a child who grew up in a single parent home that it's far better to have a living single mom than to have both parents who may not be happy together. My mom was 35 when she and my father divorced. I think that was the best decision she's every made for all of us. You're still very young and have so much potential. Finish your degree, find a job you love, rear this child with love and passion, and find strength and meaning in life. The situation at the moment may seem dark, but there are people and communities that will support you and love you. Congratulations on your baby. It's a blessing!

[BabyJDPark]

Kids can pick up on feelings if you're not happy they'll know. Don't stay together for the sake of both parents being in the home, specially this kind of relationship is not healthy!  It's not giving your child a good home. Eventually he'll beat you again and it could be in front of your kid and they don't need to see that. I've been in a abusive relationship and it's  not worth it! I hope and wish the best for you and know that you'll find someone who does love you for who you are and your kiddo. Don't settle, you'll feel better about your decision once you leave and can focus on yourself and the baby.

[Danni15]

Youre not losing it. He's an *** for being selfish and what not. U may want both parents for your child but sometimes it doesn't work out that way. I'm concerned for you and your child's safety. ...You can't lean on your family for support? I mean they should be willing to help u until your able to get on your feet. ...In my last relationship I had a falling out with my love ones but once they saw how I was sincere the last go around they had their arms wide open welcoming back home.

[lindashalee]

Well he can't have his cake and eat it too. Trust me I come from a broken home. It's better to have one strong parent that gives enough love for both parents that to have to parents that fight all the time. Think in the long run ok it works for some years but then something horrible happens and you have to get out. That's gonna hurt your child not knowing where dad is. And it will hurt you seeing your child like that and not being able to fix it. I believe I know what he's doing. He wants to look for "his love" but will settle for you if he doesn't find who he wants to be with. That's why he don't want you to leave him.

[blackbeauty1320]

You are not losing it and I understand but the best thing you can do is walk before something worst happen. Your baby and yourself is way more important then a man that doesn't care. Pray and ask God to help you in your steps.

[9_11momma2be]

Thank you all. Sorry I mean I'm not happy  being with him but I've always wanted my children to grow up in a good home with both parents. I'm so excited about my precious little angel and cannot wait to hold my baby in my arms. I just feel alone in this pregnancy cause I don't have emotional support from him. He tells me he doesn't love me but doesn't want me to leave him. Maybe I am losing it

[lindashalee]

I'm not trying to be negative and I know every relationship has problems. I think you should think really hard about being with this guy. If he's cheating he could end up giving you some sort of std. And he's beat you really bad. You can't be sure that he won't do it again and what if it cause something to go wrong with the baby. You shouldn't have to put up with that. He shouldn't get mad because you have feelings. I'm almost in your boat. I know you said you do t have friends so I'm here if you would like to talk about it. Just msg me if you like if not that's ok too. And I wish you the best just remember you are worth more than that I should be treated at least with respect if nothing more. Good luck and congrats on your pregnancy!!

[Danni15]

You don't sound happy. This should be the time where you are cherishing this whole experience, bonding with baby.

[babymk5]

A www...I know how you felt thinking things will get better and he will change. As I've grown in to a woman and my mind is just a little bit more clearer I learn that once a person (man) disrespect you and you take them back they will think its OK to continue to disrespect you.(cheating, beating,etc is disrespect). Yes it maybe going smooth for a few weeks/months but soon that ugly head will rear. Sorry you have to go through this especially while pregnant but you need to do what's best for you and baby. good luck

[ProudMamatobe]

Pray to God and try to relax for the sake of your baby remember its not just you alone you have to worry about you are carrying a baby that is apart of you now. Seek some therapy and your boyfriend shouldn't be putting you and your baby through any stress this should be an enjoyable time for both of you