I definitely feel you. I cry sometimes just because I want a cigarette so bad.
I need to quit though I hate that its been so hard to also. Ive been trying since finding out but the extra moodiness on top of the hormones just kill me sometimes. And I know its all psychological which just makes me feel even worse that a cigarette can have that kind of effect. So Im willing to try almost anything if it means quitting smoking. Cold turkey just doesnt work for me.
Aww congrats on paying off the layaway. I've tried the electronic "vapor" cigarettes, I personally didn't like it but most of my friends did.
If doc approves that is a great idea! And congrats on getting he presents paid off so exciting :)