Feeling depressed.

[happy_mommy]

SO i feel like everytime i go to the doctors i get bad news.  Now I know there are so many people in way worse positions than me and I am very thankful that everything I"ve been hit with isn't 100%.  My first doctors appointment I was told I have HPV, now that test was from 3 months ago and they just now decided to let me know that I have it or "may" have it in there minds they couldn't do any further testing because of my age.  SO they did another pap test and that cleared itself. Then they did an ultrasound and found out that I was pregnant with twins and one of my babies didn't make it =( Now they are telling me I have strep B and reading about it it seems so scary! I feel dirty and disgusting i feel all of this is somehow my fault and I didn't make the right decisions to better my child/ren who will be the loves of my life.

[happy_mommy]

I know it really isn't my fault...but its hard to wonder if somehow all of this is my fault.

[nickieb85]

I am sorry that things like this are happening to you. I had HPV and 85% of women get it sometime in their lifetime. You are not dirty or disgusting and with your twin there was probably something genetically wrong with him/her and your body knows what is best when it comes to growing babies. You didnt do anything wrong and I hope you feel better.