A World Of Regret

[J217]

I am a 30 year old male. I recently left my wife of one year because I wanted to be single. I wanted to go out and party with my buddies and have sex with lots of girls.
My wife is a wonderful woman, and was very gracious and kind when I told her I was leaving and gave her absolutely no reason.
I have since done everything I wanted to do. Go out and party. Have sex with lots of young girls. And everyday, I miss my wife. I miss the companionship, I miss cuddling with her, I miss her bringing me presents just because, I miss her taking care of me when I was sick. I miss everything.
This was the single biggest mistake of my life. She is not dating anyone because she's not ready, and I suggested we get back together but she said no because she no longer trusts me and cannot live her life with me not knowing if I will up and leave again for no reason.
I just want this to be a warning to anyone thinking of leaving their spouse because the grass may be greener out there. It's not. It's horrible.

[Judy246]

What a hard lesson to learn and you should have thought of that before making such a commitment with your wife. The ball is now in her court and she has control of the only person she can control...herself. Once trust has been broken, it will never be the same, but if you continue to seek her forgiveness and prove yourself to be worthy, it is possible for reconciliation. Ask her if she would be willing to accompany you to a marriage councelor and if she says, no, then tell her you will seek the help, to show her you are willing to do whatever it takes to get her back. I do wish you the best of luck.

[RockRose]

That's very giving of you,  J,  to post your story as a warning.

[cheshchesh819]

got to give it too you,your honesty is worth alot lets just hope others reads this and thinks twice before acting on their impulses because as you said the grass isnt always greener on the other side,and before you know it you turn around and everything you thought you wanted isnt so good after all and then everything that you did have has moved on.