You should definitely NOT "fight for her" as you say. Because the reason for the breakup is all on you and you haven't even started working on your many deep seated issues in order to be a worthy partner for her. Instead of wasting any more of her time being in a relationship with someone whose feelings you keep hurting repeatedly, you need to put yourself into therapy and start attending AA meetings to get your alcohol problem under control. Until and unless you fix yourself on the inside, you will never be able to be a worthy partner to anyone. In order to truly work through your issues you should take a long break from dating. A year or more of intense working on yourself might help you get back on the right track.
As far as this relationship goes, it's done. You need to walk away and dedicate yourself to becoming a better person. Because you should want to be a better person and lead your life with integrity and loyalty instead of getting drunk and doing dumb things. You're not a kid anymore, you're a grown man and you need to start behaving like one.
I think your mom is correct in thinking it would do more harm than good to unburden your guilty conscience by telling your girlfriend, since this is the only time you are ever going to do such a thing. If you thought you were going to do it again, your girlfriend should get a warning so she can decide if she wants to be in a relationship with you, but since you are clear you will not, all it will do is cause her to stop trusting you.
Honesty is always your best bet because if you lie to her and she finds out that you lied then it's going to create a bigger trust issue and more problems and hurt her even more I'm telling you from experience when you mess up fess up because if you always be honest with her even though that Honesty might hurt her it will be easier to move on with your relationship in the long run. There's many things that happen in this world and there might come a time that you didn't do anything but you're getting accused of something but she don't believe you because you lied to her in the past. So instead of having one issue then you'll have two. If I was you I would tell the truth
Alcohol sure can get us into trouble! Let me say a few things=== the lap dance isn't cool but this could have been FAR worse. You have a conscience which I'm glad to hear and, of course, this would bother your girlfriend. Taking it to your grave sounds like a good idea. Learning from it, GREAT idea. But here is the problem-- is there anyone that might tell her about it? I ask because years ago my husband went out with friends and they ended up at a strip club. I know which one of his friends did things they shouldn't have. He told me. I'm friendly with their wives but they aren't like super close friends. So, I didn't share the information. But if I were better friends, I might have been tempted. A couple had lap dances that were pretty intimate according to my husband and one flat out cheated. The whole night was a little shocking to my husband so he unloaded it all to me. One of those couples has since broken up as it wasn't an isolated event for that guy. Anyway, if there is a chance that someone could leak the info to her or if there are any pictures on anyone's phone . . . that would be the killer in not telling her.
So, I think it will be okay. Be a great boyfriend to her from now on and avoid scenes like that (Including the overindulgence of drinking). good luck and let us know how it goes
So i looked back on your posts, regarding your relationship and you've now done this at least 3x without feeling the need to make changes, or use the advice you've been given. So, I don't think you're anywhere near ready to get married if you can't do those simple things, and i think that if it were me (your girlfriend) i would rather you be honest, since you cannot make the changes necessary. Every time you post this same story, people advise you not to say anything, because it would hurt your girlfriend, and she doesn't deserve it . I agree. I think you should think about leaving your girlfriend, and being single until you're ready to be part of a team (get the help you need not to get drunk, not to feel the need to see other women in sexual setting, not to feel the need to hang out with single males, or cheating males). 3 x you're out Jay. Take this seriously and do the work, or cut your girl loose. She's probably waiting for a ring, not an std.
Hard edge? yeah. You need help, not to be babied right now.
Your friend that decided to go to a brothel , is not a friend, first of all. Why not try to make friends that are couple conscious , and have a good time going out with married friends that would include your girlfriend? If you don't have any married friends, then make some. Maybe your girlfriend has married friends that would include you both in their social lives?
Plus, you have proved that you cannot stop drinking before getting yourself into trouble, it seems. So you need to either learn how to have a drink or two maximum, without it leading to you losing your ability to stay safe, or quit.
I'm not sure how old you are, but it could be a question of having to grow up quick, and change from the me mentality to that of a married man ? Please don't think i'm insulting you when saying this. I'm not.
I'm glad that you're feeling shame and disgust. But you can't let that ruin your life, and if you need to talk to a therapist to be able to get through this, do so. It might be what you need to remember that you're making important changes, and not just sweep this under the rug.
Congratulations on finding the girl that allows you to see that you are lucky to have such a wonderful girl in your life. It's been two years, maybe you need to start to think about taking your relationship to the next step. Just don't buy into boy's club mentality that includes you messing around prior to a wedding. It's a ridiculous antiquated notion. If your ready to give your heart to a women, it's not necessary to get down with the dogs and get fleas prior to doing so.
I wish you and your wonderful girl all the happiness in the world. You can come back from this, THiS TIME. But not if you make another mistake. If you do, then it means you need to get honest with yourself and get single.
Peace to you my friend.