I think you're right on the money that he may not be that great. If you have some issues with self esteem, a guy who is a bit cold isn't going to help that at all. If he isn't willing to accept any blame for issues now, this will be a major problem down the line. Every story has two sides. I think you would flourish with someone who appreciates you more than your current bf. Good luck to you.
This guy is making me feel terrible about myself. He's not admitting that maybe he's part of the problem too.
In response to mamabalas:
Yes, when he comes on to me I am very responsive because I'm usually in the mood and sort of waiting for him to do something. And yes, this is one of our biggest issues. He's not the most approachable guy, even after knowing him for 5 months and being together for almost 3 months, I'm still not completely comfortable around him. He's very stand-offish a lot of the time which makes me feel intimidated and as if he's not into me.
Anyway, I really appreciate your responses. I think he is sort of bringing me down instead of making me feel better and I would really like to feel better about myself. Maybe the first step is realizing he isn't as great as I think he is and moving on? I don't know. It would be great to fix things and make it better, but we will see. Things can either go up or down from this point.
I agree with Jo that it would be great to work on your self esteem. However, not initiating a make out session DOES NOT make you a terrible girlfriend. Many people, male and female are uncomfortable initiating physical contact. This can be a small problem, but most people wouldn't say it puts them off of sex completely. How very insensitive of your bf to say that to you. It sounded to me that you are very responsive to him when he does come on to you. Is this the case?
You could start off small, just a peck on the cheek, or a small kiss. But, don't do anything that makes you uncomfortable. Is this the only issue the two of you have? If so, I think he is placing a bit too much emphasis on your not initiating physical contact. You may be better off with someone who understands you. Remember, you are beautiful, and you deserve someone who appreciates you for who you are, good and bad. By the way, I don't consider not being the one to initiate things bad. Good luck to you.
Join some of the classes where the peo;ple work on their self esteem, and remember if you do not love yourself then no one else will, also remember you are just as good as the next person, just get some books on self esteem and work at it, not just for pleasing your boyfriend do it for yourself luck jo