1310468 tn?1274863925

Is this what people mean by "hearing voices"?

Hi everyone.

I'm wondering if anyone can help me with something a bit odd that goes on with my thoughts.

I'm already diagnosed BiPolar II, but am controlling it pretty well now with cognitive behavioural therapy. But there's a weird thought process I have that I've never mentioned to my psychiatrist because I'm just so used to it I barely notice myself doing it.

Today is my birthday, and when I asked my boyfriend if we could go to a particular place he replied "whatever you like babe". I then had to take just a second to make sure the people in my head understood that it's my birthday and I'm not a spoiled cow who just gets her way all the time. It's not voices, as such, in the sense that there's no internal sentence like "it's my birthday, I'm not just a cow" - it's difficult to explain, but it's sort of like I have to actively think about the fact that it's my birthday so the other people (they're not specific people, just faceless non-individuals) will pick up on me thinking it and understand. In the same way the other people don't "speak", as such - I'm just very aware sometimes of what they're thinking about, and occasionally I have to deliberately  and slowly run through a particular thought process so they'll know what I know and understand why I'm doing or saying a particular thing. I'm only aware of this process maybe a couple of times a day, but I suspect it's almost constant without me really registering it. I obviously looked blank for a couple of seconds on this occasion because my boyfriend asked me what I was thinking about; I told him and he actually looked quite alarmed, hence my asking you about it here.

I do KNOW the people who are watching me aren't real, it's just that very occasionally I have to remind myself of that; I'll find myself standing a particular way in the shower to make me look better (pulling my stomach in or whatever), and once I realise that's what I'm doing I have to kind of tell myself there aren't really people watching me. I never have a problem convincing myself they're not real, though, if that tells you anything.

At this point I'm not conscious of the other people affecting me in any significant or negative way, and the people have been with me for as long as I can remember. It's only now I'm trying to work out how to explain it to you that I'm realising it does actually sound pretty strange - I just never thought about it before, but I'll have to pay more attention and see if I notice them stopping me doing things I want to or anything.

Can anyone tell me is this sounds familiar, or if it's normal and nothing to worry about?

Thanks everyone.
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675718 tn?1530033033
my voices have conversations with each other :)
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Bipolar disorder can also cause a person to hear voices.  When people mention "hearing voices" they mean precisely that: You hear voices either externally from or internally inside of your thoughts that make their own conscious decisions on what to say to you.  From my understanding according to doctors and a medical student I know, these voices are your subconscious thoughts manifesting incorrectly as auditory hallucinations.
2063862 tn?1345997474
I wanna say..I wasn't gonna talk on this forum..BC..I had the same problem In 2000..The voices did go away in 2003...I do still hear My name called Mostly at night..I have PTSD-Anxity Disorder{and see a therapist}... I wanna say I did the same thing would think someone was watching me..I would even Look in the mirror and say Yes I'm Pretty,And the voice would argue with me..what I learned was to fight this Problem{with therapist help}...One day so tired and warned down..I fought all my Fears..Got a floor mirror..and looked at myself and everyday I had a happy positive thought about myself{it took months}...And I don't know really how it happen the voices went away..The feeling of being watched went away..like I said I do hear My Name at night..But not as Bad as the voices was before...I hope you get the help you need...Just remember what you hear or feel like something is there watching you..It is Not Real and tell your self that everyday and think Happy Thoughts
3236191 tn?1451021479
I don't think voices go away like that in all circumstances.  It depends on the person really.
3232572 tn?1346973180
This is so weird, I've experienced almost the exact same thing! I always thought it was normal, though. I've also dismissed it as ghosts whenever I feel like someone's watching me. The beings don't talk, but I often feel like someone is watching me when I know no one is, but not all the time. When I was a kid, I thought someone was watching me through a crystal ball.
And like Vampixen said, happy thoughts play into it too. Once I got a better self-image, it decreased quite a bit.
I've never thought of myself as schizophrenic since I don't hear voices and I always know that no one actually is watching me.
3236191 tn?1451021479
Schizophrenia doesn't always involve hearing voices, but that is a classic symptom of it.
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please elaborate on this and the other message i sent you. is it always in a voice which is not yours you hear?

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