I have been in a monogamous relationship for 13 years and I have never been happier. However, I am stupid. I let peer pressure get to me. I went to a Bachelor Party 6 days ago (Saturday) and everyone was hooking up with prostitutes. I kept insisting No, and they were relentless and kept at it. I eventually caved....
I used a condom, but somewhere during intercourse, my condom fell off without me noticing. When i finished, i realized i didn't have a condom on. I immediately freaked. I ran to the shower and washed off my genital area immediately. I then got changed and told my friend what happened, and he handed me hand sanitizer. I went to the bathroom and applied that as well, which burned.
2 nights afterwards (Monday night), I noticed 3 bumps about the size of 1 cm each on the base of my penis. I have high anxiety and immediately scoured the internet. I am freaking the hell out now. I want to wait before I do bloodwork for a better accuracy reading. I also have psoriasis, so I have been applying calciprotriene to the bumps, which I'm not sure is helping. It seems like it is shrinking it over time.
Thursday morning I woke up to myself scratching my scrotum a lot. It itches as I do sweat down there a lot, but it was itching a lot. Friday night I woke up to the same. I do NOT scratch it during the day - i don't know it's because I'm consciously ignoring it and don't feel it, or it genuinely doesn't itch. There are no other bumps other than the three i found, and they seem to almost disappear during the day time, and re-appear after I wash with water.
Do i have an STD?! I also have a headache that doesnt seem to be going away, and am NEVER hungry. I know I'm under a lot of stress, so I can't determine which are STD symptoms and which are anxiety symptoms. I noticed very small bumps popping up sporadically on my body, and it seems like it's happening in pairs. I've noticed about 4 pairs already. they are very small and the top does turn white. Guttate Psoriasis kind of looks like that, which is psoriasis due to an infection! Until i go for bloodwork, can someone tell me what they think it is!? I've reviewed Molluscum Contagium, Syphilis, Herpes, HIV. It can be anything, and I'm scared! Timeline seems almost too early for symptoms, but I know my immune system is out of wack due to Psoriasis (i take Stelara). I haven't touched my wife since (kiss or sex) and I want to protect her as I love her very much. But i think this will break us. I've already researched divorce papers - if I have something, i will leave her to protect her from my shame and my self. She deserves much better than who I am.
and I know my friends mean well for me, but I think they are more destructive than helpful. So I am re-evaluating my entire life at this point.