My problem started when I was around 16 years old and I was exposed to pornography and sexual content due to my friends and lack of parental guidance. This exposure did not end well; it caused me to start masturbating excessively at a young age. At first, I did it occasionally, but by the age of 17, I was doing it daily, and some days I masturbated up to three times. I wanted nothing but the feeling of orgasm that relaxed me from the stress I was facing due to my parents.
Since 2015, I have been in a loop of masturbation and high sexual drive, which has affected my life and health. I often feel exhausted and stressed due to the guilt of knowing that I should not masturbate. I have spoken to a doctor about this problem and how it affects me, and he prescribed Lexapro to help with the depression and to lower the sex drive. Unfortunately, this has not helped, as I still have a high sex drive and I can still masturbate daily, though I rarely masturbate more than once a day.
I am not married and I am worried about being in a relationship due to this addiction to masturbation, as it has ruined relationships in the past. In the past two years, I have also been suffering from stomach pain and diarrhea after every masturbation, which has increased my depression, knowing that I am addicted to such a bad habit and still doing it even though it causes pain.