I am older, disabled and do not work, and I took "off" April to relax... just like when I worked, I take time off. You see, it is harder for me to do regular things as my back hurts so much from a car wreck. I have pain just fixing breakfast, getting ready to go somewhere, walking in the yard, and this pain confuses me in social situations, my confidence is wrecked, you see. Well, for the last week or so, I wake up feeling just awful. I take medications for depression, extras since I began an adrenal drug that put me into a deeper depression and so taking extra antidepressant helps. I also take meds for pain, of course.
Anyway, I wake up sometimes yelling, and if husband is up he comforts me, and if I'm alone, it takes me longer to get straight, about an hour or more. I don't take a lot of showers, so I fear I'll have to go somewhere stinking. Ha! And I have fear I'll have to go somewhere at all, even tho I've taken the month off, so I don't have to go anywhere. I am not tearful as much as I am unsure, unsteady, frightened, overwhelmed.
Anybody know what this is like and how I might deal with it? Maybe I SHOULD feel this way, as I am letting go of all responsibility. I do not take any sleeping aids, altho I have tried some in the past. And also, fter juggling my various meds, I've come up with the exact right combination to stop all side effects from that one stupid pill for adrenals, the stuff to increase cortisol. It has lots of side effects. Only thing I could possibly think to do is add one more antidepressant to the mix. When I had to increase my adrenal drug, I had to go through adjusting most of my meds all over again, and I am just about there, am thinking of increasing the antidepressant..
On the other hand, if I take too much antidepressant, THAT will actually make me into the very thing it's supposed to stop, which is depressed. It's a balancing act. I try things until something works. Eventually I run it all by my various docs and am checked or encouraged to do something else, so it's not like I'm goofing with my meds without anyone overseeing all this. Also, I take rather low doses of everything. My drugs are codeine 60mg and Lyrica, both for pain and muscle tightness, Zoloft 25mg x 5 (may go to 6), Valium, and dexamethasone (adrenals). I also take a D3 supplement and a general vit/min once or twice a week.
Any comments or help at all would be SO appreciated. You never know when just a word or two is the key that unlocks the doors. And if anyone wakes up quite disturbed and scared and mixed up, that's what I mean by night terrors, so please share. Thank you all for your time.