i love you for this
annabel
October 15
REFLECTION FOR TODAY
Someone said at a meeting that anger comes from other people not meeting my expectations. If that is true - and I see it is true for me - then I have two choices: I can either stay angry, or I can lower my expectations. If I choose to stay angry, the only person I hurt is myself. My blood pressure goes up, I get acid indigestion, headaches, and become depressed. Or I can choose to lower my expectations. That is another way of letting go of what I cannot control, of not playing God by thinking that my way is the only right way.
MEDITATION FOR TODAY
I ask You to help me deal with my anger honestly.
October 13
REFLECTION FOR TODAY
When I am feeling especially lonely, the pain inside makes me wonder why I have to go through this. The longer I am in the program and share my pain, the more I am aware that others hurt also. This common bond helps me to understand, care and grow. Pain is nature's way of telling me I have a need which has to be taken care of, whether it is physical or emotional. I need to take care of myself, and I can do it.
MEDITATION FOR TODAY
Help me to realize my pain is worthwhile, because it draws me closer to You and to others, and it gives me compassion.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Whenever I share my pain, someone comes into my life with a similar pain to remind me I am not alone.
October 12
REFLECTION FOR TODAY
I am glad to realize that while I cannot will away negative feelings such as fear, anger, or despair, I need not be ruled by them. No matter how overpowering my emotions may be, I can focus on something which will feed my serenity. Although strong feelings may blind this fact, the world is full of goodness and beauty. As surely as I can be upset by another person, place or thing, I can find better experiences to enjoy.
MEDITATION FOR TODAY
May I reflect on everything in my life which brings me happiness or serenity.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Why would I choose to respond to something negative when I can respond to something positive?
October 11
REFLECTION FOR TODAY
My outside appearance is a good indication of how I feel inside. When my inside emotional stability is running amok, it is time to start getting the outside in order first. Are my clothes clean? Do they need repairs? Is my hair combed and washed, and does it need cutting or curling? How about a long, hot bath or shower? When was the last time I visited the dentist or had a good physical from my doctor? I need to make certain my emotional difficulties are not aggravated by a physical ailment such as allergies, blood sugar fluctuations, or chemical imbalances. Now that I am refreshed and looking good, I can call some friends for coffee or lunch or I can have people come over to my place for a visit. Doing these things can help to change my attitude.
MEDITATION FOR TODAY
My body houses the soul You gave me. Help me to keep it in good working condition.
October 9
REFLECTION FOR TODAY
Am I so important I am the only one who can do things for others? I used to believe the world was falling apart because I was becoming incapable of handling everything. My need to be needed was so strong I felt everything depended on me, and me alone. Ego, pride and self-will had me in their grip. I have come to realize that real help comes from allowing others to learn to do for themselves. I am now stepping back and letting others learn from their own mistakes, as we all have to do.
MEDITATION FOR TODAY
Help me to love, but not to take over.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
I will allow others to do what they have to do
October 8
REFLECTION FOR TODAY
There are many important words involved in our program, but two of the most important are humility and responsibility. Much of my progress can be measured by these two words. They are extremely hard for me to accept and use. Humility bothers me because it goes against the grain of my false pride. Responsibility is tough because it is so much easier to let someone else take care of things. When I am responsible, I take care of my commitments and obligations. Most times that is hard work. When I accept and practice humility and responsibility, I grow rapidly.
MEDITATION FOR TODAY
It is hard to be humble and responsible. Please ease my way.
TODAY I WILL REMEMBER
Humility and responsibility equal maturity and manageability
October 7
REFLECTION FOR TODAY
Being afraid of rejection, I did not trust sharing my honest feelings. Trusting seemed so scary; but once I understood the only way to let go of the fear of rejection was by my trusting, I became more willing to take the risk. As I took the risk to share and was accepted, my willingness to risk grew. The more I shared, the more acceptance I received, the more acceptance I received, the more trust I developed.
MEDITATION FOR TODAY
At times, I feel so scared, God. Help me to risk sharing the parts of myself I want to run from the most.
October 6
REFLECTION FOR TODAY
Pain had been the motivator for me to come into the program. After some time, the pain lessened in intensity and frequency. When I felt good and happy, I thought I did not need the program anymore. These thoughts scared me, so I began to create pain and misery for myself so I would be motivated to work the program. I became frightened of being happy and serene. I am learning that the desire to live a better life is a sufficient motivator. The pain which brought me here can be transformed into the gratitude which keeps me here.
MEDITATION FOR TODAY
May I remember that as I grow in the program, my values and perspectives will change.