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Have you thought about asking for respite while your T is away? Would that help to take some pressure off you?
Have you thought about asking for respite while your T is away? Would that help to take some pressure off you?
Let people guide you then but you keep pushing people away as soon as they start getting close.
Australia. I'm not sure how much internet access I'll have.
Don't use him as a pawn though when you can ask for that help/ support yourself.
I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
Australia. I'm not sure how much internet access I'll have.
Don't use him as a pawn though when you can ask for that help/ support yourself.
I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.
Yeah it has really upset me and i wanted to run today again, i could feel it building last night i was just very upset and unsettled, then i had a meeting with the woman from woman's aid but i wasn't in the mood for talking, then i met my mother in town when i was on my way back and she just ignored me, i feel like killing myself to hurt her as much as she has hurt me, stupid woman doesn't realise all the pain she has caused. Anyway i came home instead of running and called my social worker but she isn't there, i want to tell her i've had enough, all my emotions are too much again they all come at once and i can't stand it. I feel like calling the police and really dropping my mother in it her and her perfect family but i hate the police even more and i don't want to talk to them.
I don't know what to do really just going around in circles.
I really hope you get the review soon, thats good news. Where did your mum book you a holiday? Thats nice.
At least your gp is willing to share your stuff, i wish mine would tell me more and my therapist needs to tell me more.
I don't think accessing my notes when i feel like this will help either it would push me over the edge i think.
So much for my partner being supportive i told him today i wanted to go away to kill myself and he won't contact anyone i knew he wouldn't he just wants to make me suffer some use he is, i told them there is no point trusting him or anyone.
I hope all is well with you.
I don't know what to do really just going around in circles.
I really hope you get the review soon, thats good news. Where did your mum book you a holiday? Thats nice.
At least your gp is willing to share your stuff, i wish mine would tell me more and my therapist needs to tell me more.
I don't think accessing my notes when i feel like this will help either it would push me over the edge i think.
So much for my partner being supportive i told him today i wanted to go away to kill myself and he won't contact anyone i knew he wouldn't he just wants to make me suffer some use he is, i told them there is no point trusting him or anyone.
I hope all is well with you.
No. I wasn't even told I had depression just told to take anti-depressants, which I declined to take. My GP will share most correspondence with me now. He actually rang up today while I was in the shower. He said they have a name of someone who could do the review but that he just needs to clarify funding again. My mother actually booked me on a holiday today overseas.
Notes will always be subjective. Some are more objective than others. Maybe accessing them now isn't a good idea. They can really throw you especially if you aren't well.
I expect the police stuff has upset you again.
Notes will always be subjective. Some are more objective than others. Maybe accessing them now isn't a good idea. They can really throw you especially if you aren't well.
I expect the police stuff has upset you again.
I don't thin i would access my notes i would be to afraid to see what they have written.
That is a long time to spend in hospital, when i was in i met people who had been there for months, i was lucky.
I met a woman who takes 16 tablets a day, rather her than me.
The police were in touch yesterday they want to talk to me again, i don't want to but my social worker said today that they have to go through my therapist first and he is of until Monday, she also mentioned them bringing someone in for questioning they were looking for two people and the wanted the first one incase the two were connected but i wouldn't give his name, anyway my social worker said they told her they were close to finding him.
That has really stressed me out and then i want to disappear then i have to fight with myself to not disappear.
I feel very unsettled today unsure and fed up.
Did they tell you anything about what they thought was wrong with you?
Are the notes subjective, thats what my therapist told me when i asked what was in my notes that made the police think i was having an affair, it made me really doubt my therapist for ages i wondered what he had written, but he told me he had written about what happened four years ago and that i had got pregnant but he didn't go into details and he said they came to the wrong conculsion.
Not a good day today, too much to think about.
I hope all is well with you and that you have a good day. Take care
That is a long time to spend in hospital, when i was in i met people who had been there for months, i was lucky.
I met a woman who takes 16 tablets a day, rather her than me.
The police were in touch yesterday they want to talk to me again, i don't want to but my social worker said today that they have to go through my therapist first and he is of until Monday, she also mentioned them bringing someone in for questioning they were looking for two people and the wanted the first one incase the two were connected but i wouldn't give his name, anyway my social worker said they told her they were close to finding him.
That has really stressed me out and then i want to disappear then i have to fight with myself to not disappear.
I feel very unsettled today unsure and fed up.
Did they tell you anything about what they thought was wrong with you?
Are the notes subjective, thats what my therapist told me when i asked what was in my notes that made the police think i was having an affair, it made me really doubt my therapist for ages i wondered what he had written, but he told me he had written about what happened four years ago and that i had got pregnant but he didn't go into details and he said they came to the wrong conculsion.
Not a good day today, too much to think about.
I hope all is well with you and that you have a good day. Take care
I don't take all those meds now. I'm still putting a cream on my finger (when I remember) and take asthma meds when needed (or when I can be bothered).
I can't believe people swig back whole handfuls of meds everyday.
I probably accessed my notes because I needed to feel in control and because health professionals can sometimes write stuff better than they communicate it, if they communicate it at all. Notes usually come without all the emotion too which makes them more accessible/ easier to read.
The first time, four weeks. I was able to go on leave after about two weeks I think it was. The second time I had my leave revoked several weeks after I od'ed. That was for about two weeks but some of that was also spent on leave.
Moment by moment. Some days I don't cope and it all gets on top of me but I try not to make it worse and try not to act on suicidal (and homicidal) urges. I don't think I would ever hurt anyone but just thinking it and feeling it can be overwhelming.
I guess it comes back to emotional regulation. And sometimes even finding meaning in all the pain and turmoil and maybe if I'm really lucky there may be a little bit of hope.
I can't believe people swig back whole handfuls of meds everyday.
I probably accessed my notes because I needed to feel in control and because health professionals can sometimes write stuff better than they communicate it, if they communicate it at all. Notes usually come without all the emotion too which makes them more accessible/ easier to read.
The first time, four weeks. I was able to go on leave after about two weeks I think it was. The second time I had my leave revoked several weeks after I od'ed. That was for about two weeks but some of that was also spent on leave.
Moment by moment. Some days I don't cope and it all gets on top of me but I try not to make it worse and try not to act on suicidal (and homicidal) urges. I don't think I would ever hurt anyone but just thinking it and feeling it can be overwhelming.
I guess it comes back to emotional regulation. And sometimes even finding meaning in all the pain and turmoil and maybe if I'm really lucky there may be a little bit of hope.
I also meant to say that must be scary to be sectioned and made take medication, how long did you have to stay?
You have been through alot how do you cope with it all?
I meant to say this in my last post.
You have been through alot how do you cope with it all?
I meant to say this in my last post.
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