hate living and dont understand why i am still here, i plan almost everyday how to close my life up get rid of my house and belongings and give my kids to their dad yet still im here and battling through this ****** life just want it over i always have, hate everything people laughing getting on with their lives, couples in love, mothers who find it so easy to deal with their kids, could just shout and scream 'good for fukin you! **** off lookin at me coz i cant cope! give up i'll never win lifes ****