I don't have a cause.

[TheDramaticEnding]

I'm Depressed - I'm diagnosed and everything - but there's no cause. There's no reason, nothing that makes me depressed. I just am. I've read that asthmatics (and I have a severe case of asthma) can suffer Depression as a side effect; almost 20% of asthmatics are Depressed. I suffered in silence for 3 or 4 months before I broke down in front of my mum, who told my doctor, who assigned me to a Therapist. I hate him.

Okay, that's harsh. But I hate him; I hate him for no reason. He insisted there had to be a reason I'm Depressed but there's not. I got better after a few months, and for a few weeks, I was fine. Perfect, even. High on life. But now I'm heading in my downwards spiral. I don't want to do anything, I can't be asked with anything. I don't want to talk or shower, eat, sleep. I'm suffering with insomnia and I can never tell when I'm hungry, which means I'm either under-eating or over-eating. My family think I'm not Depressed anymore, and I wish I wasn't, but I am. I can't drop that bombshell on them. I just.. can't. And now it's gravely affecting my attendance to school. If I miss one day off school, I'll want to miss the next day off, even if I'm perfectly fine. And the next, and the next, and the next.

As I said, there's no reason I was or am Depressed, but my therapist always said it was something to do with school or home life, considering my parent's divorce and the fact I cry whenever I get near my school gates.

But it's nothing - nothing- to do with them.

I either want to cry, listen to music or sleep. But then, I don't want to sleep, either. I'm in such wrecks and I have no idea what to do, little things will make me cry, like if I can't fold my trousers correctly, or solve out one little sum, or fit everything into a draw, or even clean something correctly. My attendance to school is going downhill, no one knows I'm Depressed, and I'm really starting to hate everything about me.

I know this isn't a question, but I just needed to post this somewhere.

[TheDramaticEnding]

I didn't agree with him, either.

I kept telling him nothing was wrong, but he kept digging. I don't go to him anymore; I don't go to any Therapist. I probably should, but I just find myself wanting to slap most of them..

That's a little extreme, but you get my point.

But thank you. I think I'll have to tell her soon that I'm not over my Depression.

[darlenedaisy]

I strongly disagree with your therapist. This is my opinion which I can only base on my own experience and knowledge.
Depression is a problem inside the brain, it is chemical. Therefore if it is clinical depression, there often is no reson and it comes on randomly.
I think this should be investigated further. Can you get a new therapist ?
Therapists are not always a good fit, better you find one you like and trust. Also, therapists in my opinion, make mistakes.
Keep fighting to get help, dont give up.
Maybe communicate with your mom that you are not connecting with this therapist, and want to try a new one.
Hang in there, and good luck. I wish yoiu the best.